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amorphous - without definite shape, form, pattern, or structure; formless; indeterminate.
zaneamorphous
posted about 18 hours ago
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I give up. Fuck it. I'm so done."I'm busy, I can't hang out" Really? So fuckface and what used to be the best friend i had can hang out and ur not too busy for that right? Well fuck me.
I dont even care anymore. I'm just so sick... read entire post
zaneamorphous
posted about 22 hours ago
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right now, i hate everything.its so stupid how just a little thing can set me off so bad to be in such a horrible mood. and now i feel terrible. i need to move. i need to stop caring about people. i fucking hate this. i want so badly to stop... read entire post
zaneamorphous
posted 2 days ago
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i should be happy right now. happy that we can spend time together and have fun without it being about sex. but for some reason my mind is like "why wouldnt he want to have sex with me unless he doesnt care about me anymore?" which is obviously bullshit... read entire post
zaneamorphous
posted 4 days ago
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i'm in this very chill mood right now. i keep wanting to write about things im thinking the past few days but i keep thinking the act will bring down my high. im such a loner lately. i just sit around smoking pot or going to work. every time i go to a p... read entire post
zaneamorphous
posted on Nov 20, 2008
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oh the sun is shinning! the trees are alive! flowers are blooming!ok in all actuality, the weather around here is quite the opposite. its cold and dark.
but in my head im dancing in a beautiful field in tie dye.... read entire post
zaneamorphous
posted on Nov 14, 2008
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dear soulcast, my only friend,because i have no one else to talk to.... read entire post
zaneamorphous
posted on Nov 14, 2008
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i say that they're hopeful for the reason that i know i analyze shit way too much and i know that this is just me hoping for some good right now.... read entire post
zaneamorphous
posted on Nov 13, 2008
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why do i thrive on the sensation of touch? well we could go back to the past, and say it's from all the physical and sexual abuse. i think i've blogged about this before but this is what's on my mind now so whatever.... read entire post
zaneamorphous
posted on Nov 11, 2008
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its another one of those little signs. maybe its not, but fuck it dude. im picking something to believe in right now, i have nothing else and i cant stop feeling it.... read entire post
zaneamorphous
posted on Nov 09, 2008
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ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME you have got to be fucking kidding me, does he seriously think that "oh poor me, i've been through so much stress, and gee poor me i did it all myself so feel bad for me, im gonna change" and then do the same fucking shit... read entire post
zaneamorphous
posted on Nov 09, 2008
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today, with the money from my first paycheck i bought a celebratory cigar... you would think watching happy videos of the past would make you happy, no it does not. when you try not to think about something, i find that it's all i think about.... read entire post
zaneamorphous
posted on Nov 08, 2008
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last night i smoked a bit and put myself on a bad fucking trip... read entire post
zaneamorphous
posted on Nov 08, 2008
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alright, i figure its about that time to update on the shit storm that rained upon me for a couple days.so, if you read earlier posts you would have seen that there was the whole break up thing - my best friend got dumped and 3 days later i... read entire post
zaneamorphous
posted on Nov 07, 2008
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it's feeling way too pointless at the moment. every time i try really hard to be better and all this shit, its like something 10 times worse happens.... read entire post
zaneamorphous
posted on Nov 05, 2008
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alright, i know i've fucked up and it was pretty ho, but i mean seriously now? i never committed to not sleeping with anyone when we broke up. yeah it was shitty to have sex with my best friends ex, my ex's best friend, whatever, but no one was married.... read entire post