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I'm 55 and have a decimated existence thanks to many uncaring people. So many unanswered questions.
sehnen
posted on Sep 03, 2009
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Turners FallsHaunting what was my own life again today. Tomorrow my housemate, Rick Shea, died, in 2003. But I can't come tomorrow.
I've written elsewhere in this blog that in the months between March and May last year, I was to... read entire post
sehnen
posted on Sep 01, 2009
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Turners FallsWhile I was still in Greenfield earlier this morning, a man asked me for a date. I knew it was coming sooner or later... he's been building up to it for a long time. I told him I was more a friendship person (which is really a l... read entire post
sehnen
posted on Aug 29, 2009
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GreenfieldIn the year my housemate, Rick, died, this was the last Saturday he ever knew. The night before he had come back from a week at the Sisters of Providence, his third time away drying out and trying to get a handle on the drinking. H... read entire post
sehnen
posted on Aug 28, 2009
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GreenfieldAs I was walking to this library a few minutes ago, Matthew engaged in another one of his stunts. Sitting on the steps of the Pushkin gallery. Maybe he thinks I didn't see the stunt, but I did.
A year ago last night, w... read entire post
sehnen
posted on Aug 27, 2009
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Turners FallsA year ago yesterday I spent the day, and the night, in Lebanon NH. It began that way because after the night outside, I was chilled and couldn't get warm. The hospital was in Lebanon. They gave me heated blankets to warm up in,... read entire post
sehnen
posted on Aug 26, 2009
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GreenfieldA year ago last night I had a new experience, there in White River VT. It was my first night staying outside. It's a long thing in all its details, and it's far too depressing for me to go into all of them. The police in White Rive... read entire post
sehnen
posted on Aug 25, 2009
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GreenfieldA year ago today it was the 26th, and I was spending my last day in Keene NH, where on my first night the police, after hearing what I had to say, said I was in the witness protection program. I tried to argue, to tell them that I ... read entire post
sehnen
posted on Aug 21, 2009
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I never spoke to Matthew again from 18 Aug 2008 to 27 April 2009. I was in Greenfield for a few weeks last September and a couple of times he tried to get me to go with him. I wouldn't. When I came again to Greenfield for two weeks in December, he didn't... read entire post
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posted on Aug 19, 2009
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GreenfieldSo, on Mon 18 Aug last year, after I got dismissed by his highness, I went back to my room and cried for a couple of hours. About everything:... read entire post
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posted on Aug 18, 2009
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Turners Falls... here again in what was our town, where we led our livesSomeone I knew in Turners is dead two years today. Her name was Louise Branch. She died too young, and too horribly. I don't know what she herself thought of her life, b... read entire post
sehnen
posted on Aug 17, 2009
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GreenfieldBefore I go on with the anniversary story from the previous post, I have to remind you of the other odd weekend two weeks before this one: the one where we spent 24 hours together, and where we had to sit out in the backyard and wa... read entire post
sehnen
posted on Aug 15, 2009
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GreenfieldThere's another anniversary to discuss. At least I need to discuss it, because I didn't when it happened last year. I had good reasons for not writing about it then, but those reasons no longer apply.
Last year on the ... read entire post
sehnen
posted on Aug 13, 2009
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Turners Falls.... back again todayThis is my world.
No, this is the world I made and had for myself.
No, most of that was stolen, so this is the little that's left, the world of my own I want... read entire post
sehnen
posted on Aug 12, 2009
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Greenfield, 6:10 pmBack here in this town. Today was another one of those days when the bus that brought me back from Turners stopped at Court Square and I didn't want to get out, so much do I dislike Greenfield. I started to cry (I do this ... read entire post
sehnen
posted on Aug 12, 2009
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Turners FallsGrim anniversaries yesterday and today. I've written about that on braonwandering.wordpress.com... read entire post