• lfbno7 said on Nov 22, 2007....

  Don't tell me you didn't hear. They dropped the big one. I'm surprised you're still here.

• Twylarants said on Nov 22, 2007....

  I'm still here so that makes 3 of us.
  I know how you feel Ginger. My boys are scattered all over today, everywhere but here.  We didn't have the time to go up there, and they didn't have the time to come down here.  And Xmas will be the same.  I wish it was 25 years ago and they were kicking each other under the table and saying "Yuck, cranberry sauce...gross!  Ma!
  Tell Ant to stop eatin' off my plate!  Why do I gotta take the garbage out? Make Joe take it out!  Mommmmeee Levon took my cream puff waaahhhh!"
  I'd be sitting there smiling like the Cheshire Cat.
  

• MissMimi said on Nov 23, 2007....

  I'm here.  Enjoying the quiet of SoulCast at three in the morning. 

  You're going to be alone on Christmas?  Don't make me come and gingernap you and give you the place of honor at our table.  Closer to the truth would be that I'd drag you into the kitchen with me so we could chatter away while we do the dishes.  We don't stand on ceremony around here.  I'm a terrible hostess--I tend to put everybody to work.

  {{{{{hug}}}}}  I'm sorry you were alone. 

• lfbno7 said on Nov 23, 2007....

  I'd invite you here but the house is too much of a cluttered mess. One thing I'm happy about is that my daughter's male friends are attacking all the junk that people left in the garage and throwing out bags and bags of it. Oh to be living alone and in control of your environment. In our neighborhood, once or twice a year people leave their unwanted possessions out in front of their house, and in a few days the town comes along and carts it all away, after everyone has had a chance to "shop" for a few days and see if they want what their neighbors don't. So sometimes my kids brought home a nice couch or some other piece of furniture they thought they could do something with. Glad to see it's going in the other direction now, hopefully, out, not in. I'm buried under accumulated junk, and I wish I could toss it all, but it isn't mine.

• queenparanoia said on Nov 23, 2007....

  oh ginger i wish i'm with you right now.... so you wont feel alone... dont worry ginger you still have your soulcast family... and dont worry i did not forget the post i promise you... you know about my first love... i'll do it soon if i have time... i'm still thinking some post for the little box first... =) 

• moonriver said on Nov 23, 2007....

  ginger -- hey, i was waving at you, making all kinds of signs last night. didn't you notice? blame it on the time zone differences and TMI's ... lol.
  
  seriously, i'm familiar with this feeling, my friend, having lived in the peripheries for many years. probably one big difference in our situation is that i'm in home territory, close to long-standing colleagues, friends, and family... while you (like your profile says) remain an alien in a strange land.
  
  huge apartment complexes can easily turn into silent, tomb-like prisons if the lonely soul allows it. i can see that other options in a big faceless metropolis are either not so appealing or not very available to you either. maybe that's the reason why, in my case, my escape is via the great outdoors.
  
  but i know you are strong, my dear friend. xmas carols are merely that... aching jibes at the lonely heart. but don't worry. they won't be for long. there is some out there whose heart is huge enough to promise that this will be your last xmas alone... and to make good that promise... :-)
  
  

• quietone said on Nov 23, 2007....

  ginger ~ ...really...you know I was alone as well and I thought the same exact thing a few times!  No kidding.  I'd look out my window and not see a soul..no cars no noise. nothing.  I had left work early the nite before at 3am..it was kinda foggy and wet..gloomy eerie..I didn't meet one car on the way home.  I usually do, at least traffic that is going to work early...none..all the traffic lights were flashing yellow..a dull glow through the fog...all day yesterday I thought..gee, am I the only one left in the world? did everyone just dissappear? No my dear Ginger...we are not alone!  :) And about xmas..I know what you mean there too...come to Vt. and spend xmas with me up here in the snow!

• secretlife said on Nov 23, 2007....

  ok that's it.
  i'm making up my spare room and you'll just have to come spend xmas in jersey.
  believe me, here, you'll be anything but alone.

• silverwhisper said on Nov 23, 2007....

  GS, no, it isn't the end of the world. remember, we're none of us alone all the time, just as you weren't alone while walking the dog the entire time.
  
  you're a smart woman, GS, and i know that in the cool light of morning, you'll remember that. :>
  
  [hug]
  
  ed

• Mamie said on Nov 23, 2007....

  Hi Gingery...ok, after you sepnd some time in jersey with secret, she will drop you at the state line of PA and you will spend a few days with us outside of Philly..then we will take a train ride up to NYC to see the Rockettes...anybody else want to meet us there? It will be such fun!!
  If your ex has daughter this holiday, won't you have her the next? Just curious...you don't have to answer that if you don't want...if she is home, I think you should plan a big holiday party!! love ya, mamie

• oceanwaves1 said on Nov 23, 2007....

  You have your soulcast bloggers and you can go to a movie.  One good thing about America an technology we are never alone, and of course there's always prayer.  PEACE-DL

• evil_twin said on Nov 23, 2007....

  This post was really sad. I'm sorry you didn't have anyone to spend the day with. I think the holidays can be a really hard time for a lot of people. But you just have to try and make the most of it somehow. And if you get lonely, you can always come here, because someone always seem to be around :-)
  
  -evil_twin LA
  

• quietone said on Nov 23, 2007....

  mamie ~ secret  ~ oh, she is coming to vermont first then head south to you two..between us all...we will keep her busy!  hows that Ginger??

• Mr_Box said on Nov 23, 2007....

  Gingery.....I'm sorry to hear that your holiday was so bleak and lonely. Sometimes when I can't sleep I'll go outside and it feels like I'm the only person alive too.

  I live in the middle of a bustling city and it's amazing how lifeless it is at 3AM.

  You would think there would always be people. But there isn't.

  I hope that you will find someplace to spend Christmas. You got lots of offers here.

  Just remember your never really alone because you've got people thinking of you.

• rmuxagirl said on Nov 23, 2007....

  I'm here and I would love to spend Christmas with you Ginger!  SO there you go after being in Philly with Mamie, you can come to Pittsburgh with me.
  
  It is weird how a simple song could make you cry no matter what.  But I think it's the time we spend between the tears that matters.  you did a great job not allowing the depressive monster under your skin for a while.  Kudos for that.  It takes a lot to not allow him in.
  

• buckrogers said on Nov 23, 2007....

  Holidays are always the worst time of the year for me as well, ginger.  Coordinating the remnants of two marriages is a tough job, and you have to walk a fine line to make sure somebody's feelings doesn'[t get hurt.

  But I never feel lonely--ever.  I enjoy solitude because I'm busy mentally, either researching or writing. 

  I wish you a more social time for the holidays to fill in that lonely feeling, especially with your daughter. 

• gingersoul said on Nov 23, 2007....

  I am back from work......sweet deal...i got paid as an holiday plus since i worked for more than 4 hours i will paid as overtime for the other 2.....

  I will work tomorrow too......so to celebrate this extra money i bought for myself a nice bottle of red wine...a S.Cristina that (amazingly) was on sale....i am sipping it right now.....so good....an i am listening to my Baroque music too....

  Thank you all for the nice words...

  LF.....welll..no, i wasn't aware that the end was arrived.....why didnt you send me an email, goofy head? ....:-).....Thank you for inviting me.....i would love to meet you but i understand you have enough clutter in your life.....lol....i could help you in organize your garage though.......i am very good at it.....{hug}

  Twyla...oh....dont you feel so sad when you remember complaining for something and now that  you dont have it anymore all you do is regretting that same thing that was making you roll your eyes?....{hug}

  Mimi......i wouldn't care at all......i am known in my family for being the one obsessed for clearing the table as soon as the last one had finished to eat......actually...many times happened that i took the plate still half full off the nose of someone....LOL....i like washing plates and glasses..i dont do good with forksd knives though.....{hug}

  Queen....i am waiting for that post , sweetie.....take your time....i know it will be beautiful..{hug}

  Moon.....i know you have a weakness with "Adeste Fidelis".....:-) ...and yes, i remain an alien in a foreign territory...no  matter how hard i try...and i am afraid to tell you that i am an alien in my own country sometimes....i am in a limbo...where will my roots finally attach? And grow? Thank you for your wishes about next Xmas....for now i have this one.......... {hug}

• gingersoul said on Nov 23, 2007....

  Now i am listening to Gluck "Dance of the blessed spirits" from "Orfeo"....it suits so perfectly this gloomy weather......:-)....and i need to refill my glass of wine......

  Quiet......Vermont is one state i never visited and i am dying to see....i would love to visit you...thank you so much for the invitation...so we will wande in the fog calling out our names....like Heathcliff in "Wuthering Heights"......LOL...

  Secret......don't tell it twice....seriously....if i had the money i would come....to see you and your family would be so great.....{hug}

  Ed.....well, this morning i walked the dog again...and again no one in sight...the apartment windows were all closed...no lights.....but this time i didnt freak out....:-) so i guess i am a smart woman, after all....lol...{hug}

  Mamie...no, no problem in asnwering....she will be the 25th and the next day she will be with her father until school starts...but between the last day of school and the 24th morning she is going to visit a dear friend of her who she has not seen for ages.....she is so excited for this opportunity and i consider this a Xmas present to her.....whatever makes her happy.....so i will have her for only Xmas day......but thats ok....

  So.... lets do this....Vermont, then New Jersey then Philly......keep dreaming, Ginger, keep dreaming...LOL....{hug}

  Ocean.........thank you for stopping by...you are so right......Soulcast have kept me company by one year already....and it never failed to deliver smiles and hugs, support and cheers.....:-)

  Kyle......thank you  for your sweet words....oh, yes...i will come here, thats sure.....lol....i remember last year i had the same problem and Jenna threw a surprise-post for me ...you should go and read it.......that is Soulcast at its best....;-)  

• Expendable said on Nov 23, 2007....

  Holidays are the hardest when you're alone.

• gingersoul said on Nov 23, 2007....

  Boxilicious....i kind of enjoy sometime this oddity...being so alone in the middle of a populated lace...i can appreciate the singularity of the difference......sometimes...what really hit me has been that damn Xmas song.....LOL...

  Rmuxa...and this is a deal......after Philly i will fly to Pittsburgh....i have never been there either.....you are so wise...its the time we spend between the tears that count....but the tears too contribute to who we are....{hug}

  Buck.....i understand you so well ....i cherish solitude, like you...and i get bore very rarely......but, as you said, the holidays can play dirty  tricks with our heart though....i wish you to be a good acrobat with your many committments....{hug}

• gingersoul said on Nov 23, 2007....

  Expandable.......you are so right.......i am getting better though...the first year after the divorce i was so distraught i didnt even want to put up the Xmas tree or going for shopping..... i sent only one or two Xmas card...i was a total mess...i kept it together only for my daughter...

  and i didnt even have Soulcast then....this year i feel a lot better.....and yet...that stupid Xmas song.....:-)

• hotaka said on Nov 23, 2007....

  Gotta run now. Earmarking for later!

• Jenna said on Nov 23, 2007....

   

  Hi sweetheart,

  I am sorry you spent the day without your daughter.  I hate that for you.  And isn't it funny how we can be holding it together and one little thing like a song can completely knock us over. 

  I admire your strength gingersoul.....you are an inspiration for me. 

  Go....enjoy your wine.....I am thinking of you!

   

• travelr712 said on Nov 23, 2007....

  ginger - i've spent a couple holidays alone myself. i thought i was going to just fold up into myself and disappear into a black hole last christmas! i don't ever remember feeling so lonely, ever in my life! but guess what? i woke up the next day, and i was still alive and in one piece. sounds like you did the same thing. life goes on, huh?

• hotaka said on Nov 23, 2007....

  I have had the "end of humanity" feeling before but the lonliness I don't ever recall experiencing. However, I know how a song can make you feel alone, even if at that moment you don't recognize all the people who are still in your life.

  My end of the world feeling came in London, a short walk from King's Cross Sation. It was December 23rd, late evening, and K and I were walking to find our hotel. A few people were outside the station but then we passed a construction site with only scaffolding and gravel. Next we walked down a street past a university I think it was. There was a long row of buildings on each side but not a single light on. The street was devoid of other people and the cold wind blew newspapers along the pavement. A few street lights were on but there were no people, dogs, cats or anything. Just blowing papers, an empty street, two big dark buildings and the nip of the December air.

• crybabylu said on Nov 23, 2007....

  Your story reminded me of some christian friends I know when they would sit around tell how they thought they were the only ones left and had to start phoning people they new, such as family and close friends to make sure "the rapture" hadn't come and they'd been left behind...

  Do you intend on going and seeing that movie coming out with Will Smith when he thinks he is the only one left after a nuclear war?

• travelr712 said on Nov 23, 2007....

  hotaka - your story reminded me of one of the trips i took to japan. because of the jet lag, i was up at 3am, and decided to take a walk. i walked for a full hour around the streets of tokyo, i must've gone 4 miles, and the only person i saw in that entire time was a cab driver asleep in his cab! the next morning when i walked out of the hotel onto the same street, i could barely take a step because there were so many people. it was surreal!

• lioneljay said on Nov 25, 2007....

  Ginger, I had a similar experience on Thanksgiving Day. Because some of the family coming to be with us could not travel until Thursday, we had our celebratory meal on Friday. So late Thursday afternoon/early evening I went out to find a store that would sell something we needed to make a pie. No stores were open, the streets were empty, and the night was eternally quiet. Very strange.

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