This is the first I've been able to log online today. My internet access was down. And I never realized what a junkie I was until my internet was taken away. That was a weird realization. But it was like my entire day was in an upheaval because my fucking internet wasn't working. That's sad. But surely I'm not alone right?
It was a holiday, so I was looking forward to spending my morning doing nothing. I was just going to drink my coffee leisurely, while surfing Soulcast and checking my email. Nat had a lot of errands to run today, and was having lunch with her mom. I had the place to myself. But when I turned on the damn computer, I got nothing.
It said I was connected and the happy network icon was blinking at me. But nothing. I just kept getting 'page not found' errors. WTF? So I'm suddenly very agitated and I start unplugging cables and shit, praying it was just a momentary glitch. Usually when this happens, I reset the router and all is well again. But that didn't work.
So I unplugged the modem, and reset that. Still nothing. I turned on my TV (because it's all through the same cable) and that worked fine. So I rebooted my computer, unplugged more stuff. Still nothing. So I desperately get out my laptop, thinking maybe my computer is fucked. But the laptop wouldn't connect either.
At this point, my coffee is cold and I'm just really pissed. That's not the relaxing morning I expected. And Nat is listening to me stomp around and curse and she keeps telling me it'll start working again soon. She's trying to be the voice of reason. But I told her, "what if it doesn't start working?" Will I have to wait for the repair guy? It's a holiday. Does that mean no internet at all today? What the hell am I going to do with myself? I had no other plans.
So I decide that I'm going to find a wireless connection because surely one of our neighbors is stupid enough not to secure their network. And sure enough, I got three choices to choose from. Thank you, God. Nothing better than stealing a signal when you're desperate.
I connected to one, got online--for about 5 minutes. I tried to send someone a message, and then it just went away. Lost. And I couldn't get it back again. I'm standing in my kitchen, holding my laptop up to the window, praying the signal will come back. And it did. But how can you really surf the internet when you have to hold the computer over your head and up against a window?
These are the actions of a desperate man. A ridiculous man. And I think I might need to join some sort of support group for internet addicts. Please tell me I'm not alone. I actually wanted to do the dance of joy when my computer started working again. It was a great feeling to just push a button and actually get somewhere.
I still don't know what was wrong though. I called the cable place and I got a recording saying they were having 'technical difficulties'. But I don't really care what the problem was as long as it's fixed now. But I feel a bit ashamed of myself for freaking out over a God damned internet connection. I think Nat wanted to leave on her errands, simply to get away from me and my grumpy ass.
I need some help, don't I?
-evil_twin LA
evil_twin posted on Nov 12, 2007
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silverwhisper said on Nov 12, 2007....
dude, i've been through it too and believe me, i'm similarly crazed when it happens to me. :>
i'm glad you finally did find a connection, though. :D
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evil_twin said on Nov 12, 2007....
silver--I'm so glad it's not just me who freaks out. Poor Nat thought I was going to lose my mind. And she's like, "it's just the internet......" Ah! She doesn't get it. I wish I was as unaddicted as she is. -
botoni said on Nov 12, 2007....
Hello, My name is Botoni and I m an internet addict. Need I say more? -
uniquely-ironic said on Nov 12, 2007....
I believe they have a 12 step program for that problem.I get all grumpy when I don't have internet access. I may not really need to use it, but not having it seem totally unacceptable. Of course my friends and family know I'm an addict, so I don't have to hide my dirty secret. -
wombat said on Nov 12, 2007....
I freak anytime anything goes "wrong" (you all know that!) but no connection at all? I feel like I have been turned away at the door of an exclusive club. You held your computer over your head at the window? I might come close to tossing it on out!Glad it came back on for you! -
the_infernal_optimist said on Nov 12, 2007....
Ugh, something similar happened to me yesterday/today at my grandparents' house - my brother's wireless connection just hated on my laptop the entire friggin' time and it drove me nuts! It would connect long enough to turn the little icon all green and happy, and then as soon as I went to do something, "server not found."
Grrr.
Glad to see you back! :)
~Infernal
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evil_twin said on Nov 12, 2007....
botoni--Welcome to the group!
uniquely--That's how I feel too. I might not even need to use it, but if I can't when I want to, it bothers me. After I finally got online, it was a huge relief. But then I kind of sat there after a few minutes and thought, "well, I didn't miss that much...." But I was still happy to be able to see that not much had gone on. It was the being without that drove me crazy!
wombat--I always feel like there's a secret world out there that I'm no longer a part of when I can't get online. It's like being locked out and you just know you're missing everything. I was tempted to throw the computer out the window, but mostly I wanted to rip the cable out of the wall instead!
infernal--That was the same type of thing I'd experience. It would connect long enough for me to see a page, but then it wouldn't do anything. It was so frustrating! I'm glad I'm back too. Even if I wasn't gone but a couple of hours. But it felt forever! :-P
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wombat said on Nov 12, 2007....
evil twin: I remember the first time it happend to me on SC. I couldn't get on, so I found a "back door" to climb through. I was yelping like a whipped dog, and I kept clicking on things. Finally I found a post that was a SC ad about someone from SC. I clicked on that and "Wa-La!" I was seeing the page where my "name" was. Some parts of getting on SCwere down, but others were still there.Guess what? I found myself the same way recently. How weird. -
nursecutie said on Nov 12, 2007....
You were so funny this morning, even if you didn't think it was funny! I know how you feel though. I might not be as addicted but I was disappointed it was down too. I had stuff I wanted to look at!!
But luckily I had other things to do anyway so it wasn't so bad for me. But poor you :( You could have gone to yoga w/me and had lunch too. But I think you would have been more bored there!
My poor little addict........LOL
xxoo natalie xxoo
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TinSoldier said on Nov 12, 2007....
I'm an addict. It's one of those things that I need to work on. -
letsramble said on Nov 12, 2007....
I had this happen to me right here on base, I was in my room (Before Marriage) and I lost my internet connection, so I did the same thing went to the window hoping to get someone elses signal and I did but it would come and go. I also decided to go out into the hall, knock on doors asking other Marines if I could get there key so I could log onto there networking, that is how desperate I was.Mark -
CreativeWoman said on Nov 12, 2007....
{Stands} Hello, my name is CW. I'm an internet addict.
Lord have mercy, but I am. I spend lots of time alone and naturally drift toward the computer. I think I would go insane without it. Once the phone company cut a fiber optic line and I was without the internet for two whole days. I was like Sherlock Holmes trying to find out what was afoot. I know exactly how you feel.
CW
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TinSoldier said on Nov 12, 2007....
Can any of us over the age of 20 even remember what life was like before the Internet?
Gah! I may have nightmares tonight. -
fearing said on Nov 12, 2007....
I don't have a laptop so if that happens to me, how will I get the thing over my head at the window?
;-P
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silverwhisper said on Nov 12, 2007....
TS: i remember. it was a much, much quieter world back then. :>
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TinSoldier said on Nov 12, 2007....
ed: Heh. Yeah, except for TV and radio and waiting for the big booms to go off. -
silverwhisper said on Nov 12, 2007....
the scary-assed quiet was itself frightening betimes, i always thought.
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wombat said on Nov 12, 2007....
SSSShh....go to sleep... -
wombat said on Nov 12, 2007....
Or at least let me.................... -
pickersplock said on Nov 12, 2007....
I know exactly how you feel, remember how I had to blog at the library for like 3 months? -
crybabylu said on Nov 12, 2007....
no one better take away my internet for a day, i'm worse that some people are without coffee. -
Fallyn said on Nov 13, 2007....
YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
the last two weekends away from home i have spent looking for a wireless to hijack.
found them. *laughing*
but no, you aren't alone.
oh...if you need a place to type....get in your car. :P and drive close to their house......hopefully they won't think you are stalking them.
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hotaka said on Nov 13, 2007....
Oh, yeah. You need help. I have read about people like you. The other night I was surfing the Net and looking for intersting stuff to read after spending a few hours commenting on SC, checking email, updating a mountain info site, commenting on art work on an art site, cleaning out my mail boxes for my three email accounts, updating info on my home page, surfing Amazon for good books, checking a magazine web site, googling and wikipediaing subjects and checking online currency exchange rates, and there it was: an article about how some people are becoming too Internet addicted. I feel sorry for such people. You need help. -
Fallyn said on Nov 13, 2007....
*FALLING OVER LAUGHING*
wow...someones in denial.
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hotaka said on Nov 13, 2007....
Just so you know, Fallyn, I am signing off now. I just want to quickly check a couple of other sites before I go home and see how K is doing and if she needs dinner cooked. Maybe in a half hour or so I'll shut down the computer. -
destinydiva said on Nov 13, 2007....
hotaka~ laughing my ass of hotdaddy!! (yay I got a nickname for you now :-)
evil~ boy oh boy oh boy have I been there!!!!!! lol remember when I moved? I was out for 2 weeks desperatly holding my laptop mid air in the hope of pinching someones signal!! :-) I even sat in my old driveway for an hour just so i could get online cus my connection was running there!!
aaaw your post brought back those memories!! you are defo not alone :-)
destiny :-) xx
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evil_twin said on Nov 13, 2007....
wombat--Desperate people like us will find any means necessary to get where we're going online! It's funny, isn't it?
cutie--Thank you for putting up with my panicked tirade yesterday :-) I know you were disappointed you couldn't get online too, but I was actually freaking out. You're much calmer than me! And way less internet dependent. Lucky you!
tinsoldier--Welcome to the group. And nope, I really can't remember what life was like without the internet anymore. Isn't that weird? I would have spent many years being incredibly bored and isolated if it didn't exist. Sad, but true. I wonder what else I would have done with my time?
fearing--If you don't have a laptop, I think you're out of luck! But I would sure laugh seeing you hold your PC over your head!
pickers--I actually wondered if I'd have to go to a library or an internet cafe just to get my fix. Instead, I went to work on my day off just so I could send emails!
crybaby--We're in the same boat. And yesterday I didn't have my coffee or my internet!
fallyn--I seriously considered pulling up a lawn chair in my driveway just so I could get a better signal! I knew where it might be coming from too, so I was going to aim it at their house. But we have a crazy neighbor who's paranoid and might shoot me if she saw me with my computer out there. She thinks people are spying on her already. Long story. But I considered it!
hotaka--Yes 'those' people need a lot help, don't they? It's such a sad thing. I'm glad that you're not one of us, because clearly you never use the internet yourself :-P
destiny--I remember that you felt guilty for stealing someone's signal and I told you not to! I didn't feel guilty yesterday. I was mostly just pissed the signal wasn't stronger! That's funny you went and sat in your old driveway though! I would have done the same. When we moved into this house, I made sure the internet was up and running before we moved in. It was important!
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pickersplock said on Nov 13, 2007....
Oh, boy! You are addicted!!!Are you sure you're not related to Mr. Plock? He's the same when the internet isn't working as he is in traffic! -
TinSoldier said on Nov 13, 2007....
I wonder what else I would have done with my time?
evil_twin: I used to read books. :D -
evil_twin said on Nov 13, 2007....
pickers--I'm totally addicted. I think that me and Mr. Pickers might be long lost relatives!
tinsoldier--Books? What are these book things you speak of? Actually, I used to read books too. Like a lot of them. But now I read the internet instead!
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pickersplock said on Nov 13, 2007....
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tizzygirl said on Nov 13, 2007....
I get the same way. My hands start shaking and shit! I do the whole unplug, replug thing and it's horrible. I hate it. It's even worse when it teases you like it's going to work but doesn't. I have stolen peoples signal in the past as well, but unfortunately where I live now it's completely dead of any floating signals! -
evil_twin said on Nov 13, 2007....
pickers--Um, not really. A little bit maybe. I do save a lot of stuff that has sentimental value, but I don't think Nat dreams of hiring a garbage dumpster like you do!
tizzy--That sucks that you have no signals to steal. It's very alarming when you can't get online! At least for crazy people like most of us here. I was actually feeling a bit panicky because it wouldn't work and that's when I realized I needed help! :-P
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kruuyai said on Nov 13, 2007....
e_t: You and me both, kiddo. Since I moved into this new place, I have to stick my computer out the window just to get a connection... and it's cold out! If I don't get the kinks worked out, I just may have to move AGAIN! -
skald said on Nov 13, 2007....
I remember when my ASDL was always cutting me off, each and every day for a while for 1 and half year until I finally got a new one which does not cut me off like that. I used to go crazy. lol -
danetteb said on Nov 13, 2007....
I got all the necessary apps on my phone for backup.
I can't go without facebook, gmail or the weather :P
The rest I can still survive without for a few days - hehe
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evil_twin said on Nov 13, 2007....
kruu--Not having a decent internet connection would definitely be enough to make me move! How do you blog with the computer hanging out the window?
skald--My old internet service used to be really bad too. I didn't keep it for long because it was too unpredictable. This service is usually very good, but when it goes out, I go crazy!
danette--I've tried to access email and all that through my phone. I can. But I can't really enjoy the experience the same because the screen is so small. And there's no way I could actually compose an email or a blog with numeric keypad. I don't have a fancy enough phone. Maybe I need to get one?
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Fallyn said on Nov 13, 2007....
that's why i have a laptop *laughing* i can drive around with it until i find some unsuspecting unprotected wir connect and then i pounce!.....though it's harder than it would seem. -
pookiedookie said on Nov 13, 2007....
no doubt about it, i am an addict! I 'mhere right now getting my fix! -
TinSoldier said on Nov 13, 2007....
I've got cable internet and I'm paying through the nose for it. But it's worth it!
Unfortunately, my laptop is about dead so I can't sit on my couch and surf and watch TV at the same time. I have to go and get on the "big computer". Sigh. -
evil_twin said on Nov 13, 2007....
fallyn--Luckily I've never been so desperate as to drive around looking for a signal. But if I had to go without the internet too long, I'd probably do it!
pookie--I'm here now getting my fix too! :-P
tinsoldier--Our cable internet is actually fairly inexpensive, so I guess we're lucky. But either way, it's definitely worth it. I'd pay whatever (I just hope they don't read this!) I know what you mean about having to use the big computer. I prefer the couch/laptop experience myself. We are the epitome of couch potatoes, you know? TV and computer all at once. Now that's the life...
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queenparanoia said on Nov 14, 2007....
oh kyle...
hello my name is queenparanoia and i'm internet addict... =)
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evil_twin said on Nov 14, 2007....
queen--Welcome to our group! You're in good company :-) -
Fallyn said on Nov 14, 2007....
ET oh i have. :P
any time i stay over at my sisters.
they have NOTHING. you'd think they were ludites!
but i found a church parking lot where i can park and not be noticed and get an excellent signal.
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kruuyai said on Nov 14, 2007....
e_t: First I stick the computer out the window and navigate to the page I want. Then I type with the computer inside... then I stick the computer out the window and hit the "send" button... but as you may have noticed, I haven't been blogging lately. When it's raining, I can get a tentative connection in the house. Pray for rain! :)
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