i'm awake, i didn't get much sleep last night.....but i'm awake.
and i feel GOOD!
really really tired. but good. *grin*
hopeful.
aware, ....except for being sleepy of course.
strong.
whether or not today turns out to be a good day relies less on what happens today than on myself.
i'm strong. and i'm looking to the future.
i said some thing last night that i really needed to say. and i'm glad i said them.
to get so angry that really felt good.
it just HAPPENED. i thought it was going to take so much more than that.
but part of myself is saying ......hold on, you're not through yet......don't get too excited.
stay up...and happy....but just remember you aren't through this yet..you still have a lot of healing to do.
so i'm not claiming it's over......only that i feel better.....and i said things that needed to be said.
and i got ANGRY and it felt sooooo good.



