i cannot think straight right now. and i have to let this feelings out. my father blamed everybody here espcially me.
this afternoon me and my sister were in our sister room playing the computer and watching t.v. our household help was on the other house doing the laundry and stuff. the door was locked for goodness sakes. me and my little was the only one in the house.
yeah my cellphone was stolen. i hope you imagine the pain im feeling rigt now since you guys know how i wanted that cellphone. remembered my other cellpone was stolen last may??? now it's fucking gone again...along with my mother's jewelry box.
we found the thing he used to break my mother's cabinet. it was big fork used in grilling. imagine if i have gone out of my room and i saw the guy.
he could have fucking killed me or my little sister.
yeah i'm shaking right now. i feel so fucking scared. i could have died today.
and what's fucked up right now is that my father is very angry at me. saying i didn't locked door. but it was fucking locked. i even checked it.
my mother said we should be thankful that none of us got hurt.
i'm more hurt by what my father is saying right now. yeah words hurts more. until today he keeps shouting at us and here we are in my sisters room afraid to go out. don't worry he wont physically hurt us... it's just his words hurt.
is it my fault? did i let the fucking robber in?
i dont care about my fucking cellphone. although i feel bad because all my friends number in iloilo is in that cellphone. it's just that...
i could have died today. and my sister too.i dont care if i died... but how about my eight year old sister. can't my father see that???
i dont think i could soulcast for a few days... i dont even know if i could go out this fucking room. i hate facing my father right now because i know he will just be mad.
ellamae thanks for sharing the website. i'm so sorry i can't pm you right now.
what the fuck is going on with our country today? i can't be even safe in my home?
please pray for our safety.
i could not sleep anymore. how can i? how would i cope up with this fucking fear? i cant even pour out my emotions in real life. that's why i'm blogging it.
well i'll update you guys later if whatever turns up...



