I have a friend visiting for the weekend.

JUST a friend.
Well, there is a guy that comes and helps my dad out around his place sometimes. He's very socially awkward, and VERY physically deformed. A serious birth defect.

My exboyfriend and i split up the beginning of summer 2006. He finally moved to denver the end of this summer. Long story short....he ended up with temporary custody of my kids......Lots of lies, LOTS of pain and hurt and all that.....i've dealt with the emotional heartbreak for the most part which is why i haven't blogged about it here.....the trial for custody is set in december......believe it or not that is WITH priority status on our case. *sigh*
ANYWAY...that's off topic, but back story.

I'm dating Mr....  .....not the friend that's visiting. i thought my dad's helper guy knew that...i was SURE dad had talked to him about it.

helper guy has been in love with me .......following me around like a puppy, since i was 15.
creepy given that he's about 10 years older than me. My dislike of this guy has NOTHING to do with his looks......and EVERYTHING to do with the creepy behaviour. i KNOW he only does it because he doesn't really understand how to interact with people.
i've tried to talk to him......not about the situation...but just a simple conversation. and he is BORING, and MOROSE, and DEPRESSED. ....like i said my dislike of him has NOTHING to do with his looks.

anyway, i thought he knew i was seeing someone pretty seriously.

but evidently not. my dad mentioned to him that i had a friend over for the weekend. and he's like "oh, is that her new boyfriend?" and my dad says no...he's just a friend.

well....helper guy stuck around all day....he does this pretty frequently......and my dad offers to take us all to lunch...... helper guy....another guy that helps my dad out sometimes.....my friend that's visiting....me and my mom. so anyway...we all go to lunch.....and my friend sits across from me, and helper guy sits beside me. he's actually carrying a halfway decent conversation today and it wasn't totally horrible.

anyway, i needed some stuff for the halloween party we had tonight so my friend and i excuse ourselves when we were done eating to run to the store in the same parking lot while everyone else is finishing eating....that possibly was rude of us.....i don't know.

anyway, so we get back and let everyone know we found what we needed, well i thought everyone was done and ready to go....so i headed out the door, my friend follows me out...and so does helper guy.

and he says....they aren't done yet...but if you need a ride home i can take you......well, i feel really uncomfortable with that idea.....he just rubs me the wrong way.....for one thing there is only so much being stared at CONSTANTLY that a person can take.

and i made some kind of excuse that i wasn't sure i needed to go straight home and i needed to discuss with my dad what the plan was.

anyway. so i end up riding home with my dad.......i head in the house and see helper guy pulling up in the drive way as i'm going back in the house......

then my mom comes in a few minutes later and says that helper guy stormed off saying "well, i hope they're happy together" ....meaning me and my friend that was visiting. .....who i am NOT attracted to....*shudder* ........

*sigh* i'm just so sad for him. he's a decent nice guy....that is just completely socially backwards, and very very lonely. .........but i just CANT be his rescuer. I know he thinks it's because he looks the way he does.......but it's soooo not.

i couldn't ever love him and feel fulfilled with him.  i could definitely love someone that was physically unattractive. i could definitely love someone even who was emotionally damaged.
but i HAVE to feel something there......deep conversations.....a deep connection.......

i just feel bad about the whole thing.