From my last two blog entries, I guess you can see I had a little emotional melt down over the weekend. I do apologize. I feel like a little child who has just thrown a tantrum. I need to think before posting when I am so down. I'm a little embarrassed today.
It amazes me how deeply my emotional hurts cause me pain sometimes. I hold things in. You would never believe that if you read me with any regularity, but I do. Sometimes there are issues in my life that I just don't like dealing with. I sweep them under the Soul Cast carpet.
Rejection is a biggie for me. When it happens in real life, I don't always think as rationally as I should. I take things far too personally. I accept blame generally whether it was my fault or not. I see the glass as half empty and not half full. It's not a situation that necessarily makes me proud.
My posts over the weekend were not proud moments either. I let my rejected heart spill over into worrying about silly numbers that don't matter. I don't blog to be popular. I blog for me in all honesty. I am honored by all the friends I've made here along the way.
Please forgive this misbehaving child.
CW
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CreativeWoman posted on Oct 22, 2007
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evil_twin said on Oct 22, 2007....
CW...I had my own tantrum last night too. I think you read my post where I was stomping my feet and complaining that I was afraid everyone here would like my brother more than me. It doesn't get more embarrassing than that. Especially when the brother in question is reading it too.
So you're not alone. I totally understand you. And I don't think anyone faults you for what you posted. I truly know how you feel, and I've got issues with rejection too. In fact, I think the two of us handle a lot of things similarly and that's why I identify with you so much. So please don't ever feel bad for letting those feelings out :-)
-evil_twin LA
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uniquely-ironic said on Oct 22, 2007....
I envy you the ability to really feel and deal with your emotional hurts. Don't ever feel that it's too much for us to read. It's part of who you are and how you feel. -
CreativeWoman said on Oct 22, 2007....
evil twin,
Thank you. I did read your post about your brother and I understand exactly how you feel. As much fun as it is for him to be here, it's like giving away the key to the secret clubhouse.
I think you and I do deal with some things similarly. We have tender hearts. Is that a curse or a blessing? It's both sometimes in my little corner of the world.
CW
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CreativeWoman said on Oct 22, 2007....
UI,
Thank you. Sometimes it feels like I just keep swirling in my emotions. I don't want to take anyone down the drain with me. You are very kind.
CW
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Twylarants said on Oct 22, 2007....
Oh my gosh CW, don't be embarrassed! You've got a legitimate reason to be feeling bad! You've just had traumatic surgery and no one at home to be a cheerleader for you! Good God, I just deleted my whiny posts from a while back because I was complaining about my job! And then I started reading yours. You put it all in perspective for me. You'll get your sugar under control, we all do eventually. And you've got a long life to look forward to and lots of men to...well, you know.
Remember the Soulcast Mantras:
"You're Fuckin' Fabulous!"
"Bite Me!"
And some others I can't remember. :>)
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CreativeWoman said on Oct 22, 2007....
Twyla,
Thanks. You made me smile when you said you I l have lots of men to...well you know. :-)
CW
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destinydiva said on Oct 22, 2007....
dont apologise cw, I was gonna write exactly what unique wrote :-) I envy your abilities too, you have been through so much lately, you have absolutley no need to apologise for an emotional overload, we have all been there.. glad you have picked up a little and I hope things brighten up for you soon (((((((((((hugs)))))))))
:-) xx
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CreativeWoman said on Oct 22, 2007....
destiny,
Thank you. I sat down to write yesterday when my emotions were raw. I shouldn't have done that. Thanks for being understanding.
CW
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destinydiva said on Oct 22, 2007....
but thats the best way to deal with them cw, you dealt with them raw emotions by thrashing them out, had you have kept them in your head they would have eaten away at you.... better out than in!! :-) x -
wombat said on Oct 22, 2007....
What in the world is there to think you have to apologize for? I haven't been commenting, but I did sneak around and I read your posts. I am sorry for not commenting when I saw them--I was just in one of my moods myself.No one thought anything of anything you said as being anything except honesty and a well-deserved rant, I would bet! And you deserve a rant any time you want! I don't know you really, not even on SC very well--but you certainly have been in my thoughts alot. I care, and you know you have so many friends that do, too. It is so obvious that you don't need to feel alone or to worry about anything here. -
CreativeWoman said on Oct 22, 2007....
destiny,
That much is true. It would have eaten at me for sure.
wombat,
Thank you for reading. I don't expect everyone to comment always. I really don't. Life is just too busy and we all have our moods, as you say. Thank you for being so supportive.
CW
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Mamie said on Oct 22, 2007....
I don't throw tantrums. I stage entire hissy fits. Maybe we were separated at birth! love ya! -
rupert7 said on Oct 23, 2007....
Creative - I am always spitting the dummy or throwing wobblies as we say down under! If that is how you feel then just do it!! If anyone does not understand then they need to pull their head in!! Just be you!! -
MissMimi said on Oct 23, 2007....
You rock, CDub! -
Alyss said on Oct 23, 2007....
CW, I tend to throw my hissy fits in private but I've had a few online outbursts over the years. Please don't apologise. Really. There's nothing to apologise for. -
queenparanoia said on Oct 23, 2007....
well i act that way too. especially nowadays.. i can't blog it out yet... but i'll be here for you CW... =) -
CreativeWoman said on Oct 23, 2007....
Mamie,
That's entirely possible. I've been accused of throwing a hissy fit or two.
rupert,
Thank you. :-)
Mimi,
Thank you. You are right. "I WILL SURVIVE" I've always loved that song.
Alyss,
Thanks. I appreciate your support.
queen,
I admire that you can think before you blog.
CW
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silverwhisper said on Oct 23, 2007....
[hug]
there's nothing to forgive, as far as i'm concerned, CW. :>
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CreativeWoman said on Oct 23, 2007....
Thank you, Ed. Hug to you too.
CW
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queenparanoia said on Oct 24, 2007....
CW: because sometimes it hurts to blog it here. the truth hurts and it shows when i blog... but i'm okay ow... =) -
CreativeWoman said on Oct 24, 2007....
queen,
I can understand that. I'm glad you are ok.
CW
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Fallyn said on Oct 29, 2007....
isn't that what we're all here for?
a place we can say things we couldn't otherwise say?
and if we damn well want to throw a tantrum....isn't this the place to do it?????
everyone needs a good kicking screaming tantrum once in awhile.
it's good for the soul. *emphatic nod*
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CreativeWoman said on Oct 29, 2007....
Fallyn,
Thanks for understanding.
CW
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Fallyn said on Oct 29, 2007....
*grin* you are very welcome.
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