I have so much to do and I feel so worn out.  All I do is work and school and fight with Kellyn because I suck pretty much.  I see myself blowing up on our other roommate one of these times when she implies that I am the reason that Kellyn and my relationship is always on the rocks.  It really has nothing to do with me and I am sick of hearing about it.  I am happy that Kellyn and I are together, and I love to pieces; I just...want to feel loved.  It helps in the throws of this stressful hell we are in right now.  But what helps me stresses her out even more so that...not going to happen.  We really are a good match...life just blows right now.

We signed our new lease yesterday.  We move into a townhome December 15th.  That would be the Saturday after finals, exactly a week after I graduate with my BS from MSU.  Then life becomes a waiting game...will I, or will I not get into graduate school.  Chances are I will not and then I am not sure what it is that I am going to do with the rest of my life.  We'll see right?  I have almost all I need for the application, I just have to do some final touchs and I plan on turing it in the second week in November.  That way it is not in too early and yet they still have time to tell me if I have forgotten something.  I need to ask Tony for my letter of reccommendation, that would help out a ton.

November is novel writing month, I think I am going to pass this year and concentrate on my project in my lab but Kudos to all those participating this year.  I actually really want to write/edit Dreamers Always Drift but I need to talk to Sara about that and then see if I can find the disk I saved it too.  It is going to take me forever to edit it but we'll see.

Until next time...