Well the unthinkable has happened. I am no longer with my pickle. She has some issues that need to resolved with herself and they don't involve me. So I have been kicked to the curb if you will.
I am going to be moving back to my old life in a town about four hours away from where I live now. I won't have internet and have no clue as to when I will be getting it installed either. I leave this saturday and with all the packing and things I need to do before then, I thought maybe I should write and let you all know what was going on with me.
I have written much in the last month or so, I have been busy with kids, school, homework, and working on my relationship. I truly am not looking forward to moving and also not being able to read what you all write is going to be tough as well.
Sometimes I can't believe that it is over and sometimes I almost knew it was coming. I also wonder if there is something wrong with me. Women just don't seem to want to stay with me for some reason. (Please no bad comments, I feel bad enough.)
I won't go on about it. The crying is done and now I need to focus on packing and getting out of here. I want to thank all of you who have written so many things and keeping me entertained and enthralled with your lives. I hope to be able to come back and talk to you all soon. We will see!!!!!
Thank you.
genalonewolf posted on Oct 09, 2007
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fearing said on Oct 09, 2007....
Gen - I don't know what to say. I'm very sorry. I wish you the best.
I PM'd you too. HUGS!
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quietone said on Oct 09, 2007....
gena ~ oh, I am so sorry things didn't work out. Life does go on, and when one door closes another opens. I will miss you. Please take care, and remember when you get settled, get back here and talk to us okay!! {{hugs}} -
pickersplock said on Oct 09, 2007....
Holy cow! I hope you're okay and we see you back here one day soon!Best of luck! -
Actorguy said on Oct 09, 2007....
Well, you're right, this definitely sucks major ass! We don't know each other well, Gen, but I have followed your blog and I know how much you love pickle. I hope she finds what she's looking for. I wish you all the best, Gen, and hope to see you back here soon. -
Trinov said on Oct 09, 2007....
Hello, I haven't commented on your blogs before, but I just want to say with the perspective of 'age' that in the last fifty or sixty years or so the whole concept of marriage has fallen apart. People seemed to know once that growth of an adult is dependent on the marriage relationship, and that the give and take of a marriage relationship helped one mature into an adult human being, a competant parent, a grandparent or uncle/aunt who could give relevant advice and help to others......... .........So don't start getting into self-blame or depression. In a saner society this break-up probably would not have happened. Women today seem to be going in circles, confused by the anorexic models, the 'career' orientation and the constant barrage of the media....It is the "anti-sex' league of '1984'" in a more attractive packaging...... Not that women's limited middle class 'doll' roles in the 19th century were healthy, but if you go back a couple of centuries you will be surprised to see that in many places in the world women were equal partners in the family livlihood and so had a respected place... In Genesis G-d says that woman are created as "a help-who is against him" which sounds wierd. But it is hinting at the balance that is necessary in a relationship. If the two are equally balanced in their respect for each other and for each other's roles, the woman will be a help to her mate, if there is imbalance she will be against him--out of her own anger and needs.......whatever will happen, whether this young woman comes back to you or you find another who will love you deeply in return for your love, may you find that balance and happiness....but blaming yourself is not what will make that happen, understanding yourself and your own needs, that is different. -
evil_twin said on Oct 09, 2007....
Aww, man, that sucks. I'm sorry to hear that. I didn't really get much of a chance to know you, but I did read your posts when I saw them. I certainly didn't see this coming. I hope that things work out for you. Good luck.
-evil_twin LA
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gingersoul said on Oct 09, 2007....
Gena......when a love ends its always sad.....a project is crashed, the present changes its colors.....there are no words to console you ....i am sorry....you were constantly talking of Pickle with such loving words and so much love....
I hope she might reconsider her decision..hope she will be back to you ...sometimes it happens....
But, like this wouldn't be enough, why you have to move now?
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uniquely-ironic said on Oct 09, 2007....
OMG! I didn't see this coming. I'm so sorry. Please, when you get internet (and eventually you will) keep in touch with us. -
CreativeWoman said on Oct 09, 2007....
Gena,
I'm so sorry to hear this is happening to you. We'll miss you until you find your way back. Please take care of yourself. My best thoughts are with you.
CW
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simplyklo said on Oct 09, 2007....
Sounds like you've been meeting the wrong women ... everything will work out one day. Keep your head up. I look forward to reading your posts when you return! -
husbandhater said on Oct 09, 2007....
(((((((G-WOLF)))))) I'm sorry to hear about you and Pickles. God if I was single & available I'd be your new Pickles b/c you sound like a good guy. Which is why I'll tell you don't be sad b/c women are like buses, theres one around the corner every 5minutes(hehe). And a good guy like you doesn't stay available for long.You shall be missed and I hope Pickle doesn't wake up when it's too late and realize that she lost her diamond in the ruff.Good guys are VERY hard to come by these days especially when you have kids. I should know. GoodLuck and catch an internet cafe once in the bluemoon to drop a line and say Hey to those that are going to miss you. -
the_infernal_optimist said on Oct 09, 2007....
Oh no, Wolfie! ((hugs))
I hope you will be able to poke your head in from time to time - we're here to support you if you need it, when you can take it. I'm so sorry that things have gone this way!
Please take care of yourself. We'll miss you!
~Infernal
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Mamie said on Oct 09, 2007....
I wish you all the best as you make this somewhat scary transition. I hope you find and land where all your dreams will come true! mamie -
polarheart said on Oct 09, 2007....
Wolfy, man, I am so sorry to hear about you and Pickle splitting. . .I am sure this is a very tough time for you. I do hope that you will get your internet connected asap so that you can stay in touch here. . .I think it will be good for you to get the love and support that we can all offer here.Keep strong and dont feel that it is just you. . .it takes 2 to tango and I'm sure that Pickle has her own demons to wrestle.You are a good man, Wolfy, you love with your whole heart and you are generous and kind. . .many woman long to have a man like you.((((hugs))))Your friend, Polar -
skald said on Oct 09, 2007....
I am sorry to read this and I hope you will be back soon again. . Yes really sorry about Pickle.
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tbs230 said on Oct 09, 2007....
I'm so sorry. Take your time with the moving, make sure you have yourself settled. Wow...this really does suck...but you'll get through it, we're here to help! -
Jenna said on Oct 09, 2007....
Oh gena....I am so sorry! May God bless you on this journey.....
Go on sweet one....you will survive! I know you will! and I look forward to hearing from you once you have established a new life.
love to you!
Jen
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secretlife said on Oct 09, 2007....
gena: i'm so sorry to read this.don't give up hope... -
UnknownUser said on Oct 09, 2007....
I'm sorry you're having to go through this. Don't ask yourself what is wrong with you. We all feel that way when a relationship ends. It's not you. Sometimes people change or events occur that changes something inside someone. Everything happens for a reason and eventually, out of the bad, something good will come. You may not see it now, but you will see it when the time is right. Good luck! -
sweet_cookie01 said on Oct 10, 2007....
gena i am so sorry to hear this... i thought things were doing fine with you and your pickles... gee i am really saddened about this.
i can only guess how difficult moving is with you, and how you will go on each day with some uncertainties... my prayers will always be with you..
i hope you can still come back to soulcast and start writing again. I think it may help witht the situation, but i think you need some time off to reorganize your life.
please take care... lots of love, Sweets...
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silverwhisper said on Oct 10, 2007....
gen, like everyone else who's already commented, i'm sorry to learn this. i had a sense things weren't well with you for a while, to be honest, but i ought to have asked before now.
be well, my friend. may the road rise to meet you in your travels.
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BrenneeLee said on Oct 10, 2007....
I've already bawled in your ear, and you know how I feel about this. My heart aches for you in ways I didn't think was possible. I'm not going to say all the things everyone's already said. Although I'm sure in time that all those things will come true, I'm not going to try to cheer you up with words that have always eluded me (your very hardcore, over-honest friend). So that leaves me with this....
You are my best friend and I love you. You always will be, and I always will.
(expected time when I can tell you that to your face and squeeze you is 20 hours and counting)
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genalonewolf said on Oct 11, 2007....
Its wonderful to know that so many people care what I am feeling and also take the time to respond to it. I want to thank all of you that responded to me here. I won't forget any that wrote here and to say that I will try to be back as soon as I can. Good bye everyone!! -
queenparanoia said on Oct 11, 2007....
i just read ths and it totally woke me up!!! i thought you and pickle were perfect for each other!!! oh my... i'm so sorry about this genalonewolf...=( -
catch22 said on Oct 13, 2007....
walk away laughing.