today i had a really gud day.. did some studying after a really long time..

went out with my bf , had a great time.. he told me i looked really beautiful today , and then we made out loads...

but now that im bak im thinking wat will i do after a week wen i'll stop talking to him.. i've been a fool in so many ways...

first, wen i broke up with him 2 years bak.. then 3 months bak wen i became involved with him again...

i often wonder how naive i was to think that i'll be able to get in and out of the relationship without getting hurt , how stupid not to have realised that i wont be able to face all the hurt again...

but now i wonder wat gud really is thinking all this.. i've done it now theres nothing left but to face the pain and smile thru it all,,,, cos the only fact is that life goes on ,, u learn to smile and say you are ok , wen u are shattered inside..