I wish I could make my mind up whether I believe in spirit guides or not! The romantic, trusting side of me does, but there's always the skeptical part of me saying "load of rubbish, you're just being conned"
When I was about twenty I saw a psychic, I'd recently had a dream about a woman who was dressed like a nun, it was one of those very vivid dreams that felt like it meant something. She was walking down a corridor, looking back at me, and I got the feeling she wanted me to follow her, I woke up, and felt very spooked for the rest of the night, I had to sleep with the light on. The psychic said she was my spirit guide, but surely you shouldn't feel scared of your guide! I've never dreamt about her since.
I have dreamt about animals guides though, whether that's because I have more trust in animals than I do in people I don't know. They don't really "speak" to me, they are just there, and I feel comforted rather than scared.
I did become attuned to Reiki a few years ago, at first I went with it, and I had some very spiritual moments when self healing, and some positive outcomes when I used it on animals. I never did any hands on with people, but I did do some distance healing, and also had some significant moments while doing that. Things changed when the person who attuned me became almost hostile, and cut ties to all her "students". I kind of lost faith at that point, and stopped practicing. It doesn't take much for me to loose faith in people unfortunately :-) Because I lost faith in her, I also lost faith in Reiki itself, which is stupid I know, but that's how it was. I still do some healing on myself, but it isn't often enough and the skeptic in me gets in the way.
I have never been religious as such, but I do have a spiritual side, it's just I can't decide what I do believe. Anyone else have this problem?
