My mom came out to visit me FINALLY last night. Sadly, she came only because she wanted to find out what a horrible person I am. At least, that's how it seems. She heard from a source that I'm no longer a virgin. She wanted to talk to me about it and she kept saying that I, of all her children, scare her most because she believes I could be a "closet cutter." The girl who is SO good at hiding her anguish, that one day, when she really needs someone, nobody will know and something bad will happen. Pshhht. Whatever.

 

She also told my dad. I can't believe she did that. I wanted to scream, but I just sat there and listened to what she had to say. She told my dad, and when I saw my dad this morning, he wanted to know if mom yelled at me, and if so, for what. I didn't tell him though. I said it was for having drank this summer. If he wants to know more, he can ask. After all, my dad is the kind of guy who would rather see his children as angels no matter what he knows we're really like.

 

I got in the musical. I think I'm going to do it. I don't see why I shouldn't. Besides, lately, it seems that distractions would be welcome.

 

As for Shaun, I haven't heard from him nor have I bothered to call him. I don't see why I should. I feel like as my friend he should value me as much as I value him. Thus, he should make an effort to keep our friendship going as much as I am. And if not, then I have better things to do than waste my time on him.

 

ALSO...I've decided abstinance until marrage is the best thing for me. I feel it is the only right thing to do. I want it to mean something when I have sex with someone. And if it really does mean  as much as I want it to, than the person I'm with will want to marry me. Get my logic?

 

Anyhow, I have to go now. I'll talk to you all again later.