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A classmate of mine from graduate studies came to the office for some requests. She was the same jolly person I've known, although we were not that close.

The main topic during this encounter was taking exams. You see, to be able to complete my masters degree, I have to take the comprehensive exams. I tried taking the exam 3 years ago. We were in the same group of examinees that time, and sadly, we failed.

Early this year, I saw that she was among the passers and have finally graduated. I longed to send her a congratulatory text message, but was not able to do so bacause she changed her numbers. Good thing she came, and I had that opportunity to greet her personally.

Honestly, I got scared in taking the exams again. I know during that first time that I needed to have more time and focus just to be able to pass that exam. But time and opportunity was not very kind to me, so I failed, and have taken every responsibility for that failure. But I am afraid to dare again. She prodded me to take the exams this coming December. I told her I'd think about it.

All my life, I have been so sure of myself. And all my life, I took a lot of exams and have passed. Except for 2 tests: an entrance exam in high school and that compre exam. These failures are lessons, I know.

The first test, I have overcome in due time. But this one, I am having second thoughts. But I can't turn my back.

Geez.


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  • Suddenrain said on Sep 17, 2007....
    I think we can all equate failure with something in life. Marriage, work, school ect.., but in my oppinion, it's a part of life. We can't be perfect. I look at it like...What's the worst that could happen? If you fail, you just have to take it over at another time when you are sure you are ready. The world won't stop turning. You won't die. The sky will not fall down on your head and no one who cares about you will stop caring about you. Right? The test will still be there when you are ready to take it. When you are sure you have studied enough. Don't let someone else make you feel you should be moving faster on something you know you need more time for. Do it when you are ready and even if you were to fail, you won't be the first person to ever have failed at taking a test twice. Nobody is perfect and we all move at a different speed.  :-)  Wishing you luck.
  • unknownblogger said on Sep 17, 2007....
    Lioness, remember that failures makes us strong... You must learn to accept that in this life everything is a test... A test that makes us what we are now... Since you only failed twice in your life, it didn't gave you enough courage to retake your compre exam... Don't take the negative effect of failure... Let failure gives you courage...
  • dazed_and_confused said on Sep 17, 2007....
    Your experience makes me remember the time that I failed an interview, which my father beat me up for (don't ask LOL),  in this snobbish school back in the day. They actually rejected me and told me that I wasn't exclusive school material. Then, my father encouraged me to try again after many years, and I did. You know what happened, I got accepted, and years later I graduated as one of their top students.

    I know that you will find the courage to take that exam. I know you can, you are Lioness for crying out loud! LOL! Roar!

    Cheers
  • secretlife said on Sep 17, 2007....
    Lioness:  i KNOW you will take that exam again.....
  • beyondtheveil said on Sep 17, 2007....
    Failure is a part of being human, everyone does it. The key to lessen failure is to learn from it when you do. What have you learned from the last  time that will help you on the next?

    You need to go back and take the test. The only true failure would be not trying.
  • queenparanoia said on Sep 17, 2007....
    ate lioness if you only know how many failure ive encounter eventhough  i'm still young. but like you said. i learn. i fight. i became strong... i know you'll take that exam. and i know you'll pass.. =)
  • mobil said on Sep 17, 2007....
    Do you have test anxiety Lioness? If you don't you will have if you don't get this straight in your head between now and exam time. I think you have to look at it like this; If I fail, I'll do it again, no big deal, can you look at this in that way Lioness?
     
    All my best to you.
  • Lioness said on Sep 17, 2007....
    Sudden: thanks for dropping by. I could sense that you get what I am talking about. I wish I had the same disposition as you, thanks for your kind words.

    unknown: I really don't understand why I am feeling this way. It's like suddenly, I have to rush so that I would also reach that level. Perhaps I expected too much. Thank you for symphatizing.

    dazed: he beat you? I am sorry to hear that. At least you were able to prove that every effort was worth it. Wow, you are worth emulating. Salamat..

    secret: thanks a lot. I am keeping my fingers crossed. Meantime, I need to review, review and review.

    beyond: lesson I've learned: never ever go into a battle unprepared. Well, I actually thought I was, but the result said I wasn't. How disappointing. At that time I was having personal issues that hampered me from reviewing, I will try to get over that when I decide to take it. thanks..

    queen: yes, I know what you mean. You are one strong fighter in your own rights. Thanks, I will have to face this sooner or later.

    mobil: I believe I am beginning to have it. Oh, God forbid. I get scared and nervous just thinking about it. I was actually hoping that our Dean, the one who makes the exams would retire soon. But yesterday, my classmate said I should take advantage of it because he gives easier questions than the other professors. I don't know what's wrong, but I will try changing my mindset. Thanks mobil.
  • silverwhisper said on Sep 18, 2007....
    lioness, you're simply gonna take that exam.

    study hard, study smart.

    [hug]

    ed
  • Lioness said on Sep 19, 2007....
    ed, thanks for the encouragement!! I will need to think about this seriously, and decide whether to take the test this December or not. Whew! 

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