Some one I loved so much I felt complete hate within minutes. My night of terror with the man I loved. He tried coming back with his sweets I miss you and do you want to go out. I want to see you and I love. I respectfully denied the sweet invitations for I know how the night will end and not in my favor, we been through this time and time again and it has worn and torn at my soul. The pain hasn't yet eased, yet with time I thought he woudl change this so called man of God who people respect, little did they know he is the all mighty works of the devil.
He showed up at my door, used his key to get in, greeted me with food and movies, he quickly changed faces that is all so familiar I request he leave he refused with his name also on the lease there really isn't anything I could of done. I felt sleepy wanted to sleep, just wanted to sleep. He kept bugging me, I figured he wanted sex, I told myself no more weeks before when I broke it off, I want to live for God and only God. I refused repeatedly and he was very persistant. He picked me up carried me out side and put me in the car and drove off with me in the car, as he acted eradically. My pulse began to raise for I didn't know where he was taking me and what was on his mind. He drove and finally pulled over in the middle of know where, where he yelled at me over and over I just want to go hom and go to sleep I replied. He told me he was going to leave me out there if I didn't give him sex, I cried he yelled and I tried getting out and he drove off quickly at hight speeds where I didn't care anymore I was going to leap out having faith that I would land with minimal injuries. I opened the door he swerved and and pulled on me while I tried to fight back he hit me in the head over and over with one hand while the door was being forced shut due to the wind and high speed of the car. He threatened to hurt me more if I didn't calm down he drove and drove finally taking me home, I just wanted him gone.. I stripped off my cloths and said " fuck me then get it over with and fuck me and get the hell out" at this point he just destroyed 3 years of good memories and love I had. It was destroyed within a night. I was ok with breaking it off weeks before, he seemed ok now I seen a side real dangerous side of him that he really didnt show. He begun to touch me and penetrate me as I held in my sobs and tears, He was done within minutes and I layed there not knowing how I feel anymore. He proceede to tell me how much he loves me and I just continued to lay there praying for him to leave and not to come back and hurt me. T oday I blocked him and I emailed him and explained he threatened to take everything. I really don't care no more.. I really don't know how to feel anymore.. I hate him.. yes hate such strong words...
