When the kids woke up this morning, I had had such crappy sleep that DH got up with them for the first hour.
It's not so much that I didn't sleep as it is that my sleep was all a big nightmare. Literally. I'm not sure what store I'd just come out of, but I was in a parking lot walking to my car when I saw someone shoot somebody else (I'm really not into sketching details on this, but it was extremely graphic) between two parked cars. In my horror, I paused briefly and the gunman looked up and saw me.
I turned and ran - dimly in my head I heard someone say that I should be running zigzag and not straight, so that he'd be likely to miss me or at least miss any vital organs. Do you know how hard it is to DO that when all you want is to get out of there? I tried, and shots whizzed past me - only two of them, and then the third grazed my right forearm, opening a hot path of blood that ran down my fingers and off my elbow as I kept going.
I'm not sure how, but I gained some ground on him (must've been in high school shape instead of post-baby Infernal :-p) and ducked into an almost-abandoned mall (I think maybe it was just closed for the day, and no I don't know how I got in in that case). It occurred to me that my bleeding arm was leaving a trail, so I stripped my shirt off and tied it around the wound as best I could before going any further.
There was a cleaning lady ahead of me, and she looked startled by my presence (and probably by my disheveled, bloody appearance as well). I asked her if there was anywhere I could hide, and she opened the cleaning closet for me. I crawled in and had just gotten turned around to face the open door, thinking I would pile cleaning stuff in front of me, close it, and be relatively safe, when I heard footsteps and the cleaning lady's startled cry. She tried to explain that she didn't know what the gunman was asking about (me), but he yelled that there was blood just inside the mall and he knew I was there.
She protested one too many times. One shot and her body hit the floor. Footsteps.
He paused in front of the open closet, and I willed myself invisible. I heard him say something like "Huh...interesting" and he walked off. I didn't hear footsteps any longer, so I cautiously shut myself in - the exact giveaway he'd been waiting for.
I flinched so violently with the first shots that I woke myself up, but I know I died.
That extra hour of sleep (such as it was, with linebacker baby screaming for part of it) helped take the edge off, but I still got up with a bone-level weariness that was hard to shake off. (I did get a nap later, thankfully.)
When I walked into the kitchen to fix breakfast for little one, she requested pretzels. I gave her two while she was waiting, and took one for myself. I'm not even sure how it happened, but the pretzel I had must've already been badly cracked, because a piece of it broke off and went down my throat without any deliberate action from me. Predictably, it got stuck and I started choking.
I was afraid DH was going to have to do the abdominal thrust on me - I couldn't answer when he asked if I was ok (I had pounded my fist on the bar to get his attention). He was coming toward me when it moved just enough so that I could cough. About ten minutes of wracking coughs ensued (my guesstimate there - might've only been five, but it felt like forever), such that by the time the damned thing was actually out, I was lightheaded even though I could breathe a bit between coughs, and my throat was so sore I couldn't talk beyond a rasp. It gave me a funky headache, too - it felt like someone clamped a metal bar around my skull on top and in the back.
No more pretzels for Infernal for a little while. :-p Talk about embarrassing!
Would you believe it's been a decent day, all told? My throat is still sore, my head hurts, and I haven't showered yet, but life is good anyway. :)
the_infernal_optimist posted on Sep 15, 2007
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Lucytorial said on Sep 15, 2007....
That dreams freaky in a way, very clear... It must be that time for dreams to come through, without too much detail I killed a rat with my bare hands last night, while it was biting me!!! it was truly horrible...
glad you got a sleep though
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the_infernal_optimist said on Sep 15, 2007....
Ewwwww! That sounds worse! I hope you don't have icky dreams tonight.
~Infernal
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evil_twin said on Sep 15, 2007....
You and your scary dreams! That was just like an action movie! I actually had a similar dream not too long ago about being shot at inside of a shopping mall. How weird is that? But since I had a similar dream, I already know what some of the symbolism means off hand.
Being shot at is a sign of a some sort of confrontation in your life, where you feel victimized in some way. But to see other people being shot, is actually a good thing. Go figure? But it means you'll reach the goals you have set for yourself.
Interestingly enough, dreaming of bleeding means you're physically and emotionally exhausted. Not unusual then to dream of this after you barely slept yesterday! And a closet represents parts of yourself that you're keeping hidden.
I have fun looking into your dreams because they're alway so vivid.
As for the pretzel incident, I'm glad you're okay! That's scary. Be careful eating, okay? :-P
-evil_twin LA
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the_infernal_optimist said on Sep 15, 2007....
Cool re: the symbolism, Kyle (not so cool that you had a nightmare like that, other than that we both have)! That's weird that seeing other people shot is a positive dream sign.
I'll be careful. Stupid pretzels. They're evil, I tell ya! :-p
~Infernal
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Me-Myself&I said on Sep 15, 2007....
Bless your heart all the way around! Nightmares and there almost choking to death...Lordy....you and those chips (hug) see ya -
Lucytorial said on Sep 15, 2007....
Hey evil, what does it mean then when you kill a rat... its not obvious to me yet.. it was violent... really violent, the biting, the neck twist crack thing... makes me cringe still
**sorry infernal**
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evil_twin said on Sep 15, 2007....
Let's see Lucy, dreaming about a rat signifies doubts, guilt and envy. And being bitten by a rat has something do with feeling overwhelmed with life's challenges. My guess is that whatever guilt or envy you might be feeling, you wanted to kill that. You're upset with yourself for feeling this way and were trying to destroy it.
Just a guess by the symbolism. I actually don't know if any of this is true or not for you, but does it make any sense?
-evil_twin LA
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the_infernal_optimist said on Sep 15, 2007....
MM&I: Thanks for the hug!
Lucy, feel free to postjack anytime - I don't mind a bit. ;-) Besides, then I get to read interesting things like your dream's interpretation!
~Infernal
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simplyklo said on Sep 15, 2007....
Wow ... I've never dreamt of being shot but I have had several recurring dreams since childhood which obviously come up at times when I need to deal with things in my life (fear, rejectiong, etc. etc.)I'm glad your day ended well ... it's rough waking up from a dream like that but then choking too???!!!My worst recurring nightmare is me as a kid, watching my neighbor's uncle walk around my house pouring gasoline and then lighting it with a match. I always wake up before I'm face with escaping or dying or anything, but still ... it's freaky! -
nytquill17 said on Sep 15, 2007....
Weird...I have freaky dreams but nothing like yours! Even weirder is that I had a freaky dream last night too, but nothing like this one. Phew. I would've had a really strange day after a dream like that.
If it makes you feel any better, I choke more on plain old water (or whatever I'm drinking) than anything else. How's that for embarassing? :p
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Lucytorial said on Sep 15, 2007....
Wow, helped immensely actually, the symbolisms perfect, its not so much the envy but the guilt! well a little envy and I understand the bitting bit... cool!!!!
Infernal! thanks, I hate doing it but when you can learn you can learn right!
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evil_twin said on Sep 16, 2007....
Lucy, I'm glad my interpretation was correct! Not bad considering I don't really know you :-D But just consider me the dream interpreter guy if you ever have another dream you're curious about!
-evil_twin LA
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Artemis223 said on Sep 16, 2007....
Oh Infernal - that sounds awful - both the nightmare and the pretzel incident. Please take good care of yourself. -
the_infernal_optimist said on Sep 17, 2007....
simplyklo: Welcome to my blog! That's an awful recurring nightmare - my worst is much more cryptic (and for that I'm grateful).
nyt: Water?? How exactly does that happen? No, wait, don't give my clumsy body any ideas!
Lucy: Exactly. :)
Artemis: I have been - it's been a nice, lazyish weekend (well, as lazy as it ever gets with two little ones around). :)
~Infernal