I've learned a lot about myself in the past few weeks. Something I thought I wanted to be a part of my life turned out to be more difficult and much more intense than I anticipated. So much so, that I realized I wasn't ready to make the commitment. I don't know if I ever will be.
I have great respect for those who know their own minds and spirits well enough to step into the unknown. I have even greater respect for those who celebrate their alternative lifestyle, even when faced with society's disapproval.
I don't regret the experience. For a short time, I did what I've dreamed of doing. I made a couple new friends, and learned a lot. But the timid brown mouse in me who only wants to hide from danger, is always going to be there. I suppose it's time to accept that.
