i'm tired of understanding my mother. she's hard headed just like me. so i'll stop unerstanding her. she always thinks she's right and everything must go her way. well i'm tired understanding her. i have so many stresses on my life already and i dont want her to add on my stress. i'm leading my life not the otehr way around. i remember a poem once, i'm the master of my faith, i'm the captain of my soul. that's my favorite line of the poem.
well for now on i'm tired of them telling me what to do with my life. this my life and i'm gonna live it. my own mistakes. my own lessons. my own experiences. i'm just fucking tired.
i'm in school right now and i feel like my head is gonna explode. yeah thinking about mother and how she made me feel like everything is my fault once again. i know i sound like a drama queen again. but i want to change.
like last week i feel like an important of my life happened.and then my mother came. it's like i'm stepping back two steps, where i should be stepping forward in my life.
aw crap growing up is hard.
yeah i know i rant about this on my lasts posts. i can't help it! i have to let this out!!!!!!!!!!!!
breath in, breath out.
ok i feel much better now. i'll go back to class now and try to listen to the teacher...



