So today, I had another marketing session with the students on the seminar we're giving them next weekend. We had a few students signed up after the marketing session and that's good. We need 150 students from my branch and so far, we have 10 students signed up. Hopefully by this weekend, we have at least 100 students and along the way the numbers will pick up!! If we reach our target, we will get at least 20% increment on our pay for this month! That would be awesome!

 

Fasting month is starting this Thurs and I am looking forward to that. After one month of completion, we will be celebrating Eid Fitri! I will be back heading back to my mum's hometown which is in Penang. The last time I was there was a year ago.... I bet there is  alot of changes now. Penang is forever changing! I hope the food is still good over there and I sooo cannot wait to see my grandmother again!!!

 

Last week has been really tough for me. It was an emotional rollercoaster ride for both BF and I. It all started with my stupid Myspace account. I'm not going to get into detail because I really want to put everything behind me and I always end up feeling sad and angry when I think about it. It is partly my fault because I got used to calling people petnames that I mostly use for my close friends and even a few I use on my BF, I used it on some guys - which was just something like 'honey, gorgeous, sweetie' stuff like that. It was also because my previous ex-BF call every girl that and I got used to that and saw nothing wrong in it.

 

When I think back before I dated my ex, I wasn't like that. I hold on strongly to the fact that I will only call my BF all those sweet petnames - whatever they may be. With my current BF being 8 years older, I do see it from his point of view. It would have hurt me big time as well if he called some other girl the petnames he calls me. On top of that, before this none of the guys I used to friendly flirted with wanted to email me but when I couldn't log in, I had my BF checked on my account (had problems with connection) and ever since that, he has my password and no, he doesn't check on it unless I tell him to. But with that stupid Myspace incident, he logged in and at that time, some of those guys emailed me!!!! So with all that happening and Myspace, I had a lot of explaination to do! The whole last week was just absolutely crazy and we were just hanging by the thread!!!!!

 

In a way, that incident also made us realise how much we mean to each other and how much we didn't want to lose one another. We feel so strongly now than ever and we just have to trust each other. It's hard when you're in a LDR but we both want it to work and will do almost anything to make it work!

 

Tonight had been the best night since last week. We cammed and talked a lot.. poured our hearts out and I am very sure there is more to come. We have a lot to discuss and I am so happy right now. I know the thought of me and other guys will cross his mind now and then but I am here to help him get through that and forget about it because none of those guys mean/meant anything to me!

 

I just want to make him happy. He makes me happy... we both just want the BEST for one another and we have that... we will have so much more....