i'm mostly afraid of anything and everything. turning old. being left out. being alone. and death is not an exception. i have always been afraid that one day i'd realize that my time on earth has been up and there is nothing much that i have done here. today is perhaps one of those days that i just sit down and stare at the silver screen thinking of the what ifs in my life. i guess, my mind is just so preoccupied or perhaps down right empty now that there so many things i need to do and yet i still haven't had done any of them yet. and here i am finding solace with the words the appear on the screen as i let my fingers jam away what my mouth cannot say :)