If I knew how to create a shortcut to other blogs ( I know it is simple but I am a blond after all), I would put one up here, since I am writting this blog by inspiration to another one I've just read today. The question was about ideas how to surprise a loved one, what kind of special thing could be done for her birthday.
As romantic as I am, I have never been surprised. Ever. I did get flowers, I was taken to nice restaurants. I've got jewerly, and I've been taken to exotic vacation too. But none of these things were a surprise to me, none of these things were done as an act of love, carefuly prepared and presented just for me.
I don't know why I cannot find that one man who would love me, and who I can love that way. I have been loved. I have crazy, crazy love stories behind me. But for some reason, none of those worked out.
See, I am looknig for that kind of love, in which I am being loved and pempered by some one I actualy want to get all this attention from. So far, the men who loved me crazy, I did not want, and whom I felt that kind of connection just didn't have the romantic guy in them.
I fancy about things I would love to be surprised with all the time.
One of them is my childhodd dream. Swimming with dolphines.
I wanted to do that ever since I was a little girl. Than, when I was pregnant, I was even talking about it to my husband hoping that he'll make it possible one day as a surprise. I've heard that doplphines can sense babies in the mother's belly, and that it is a unique experience to swim with them while pregnant. Living in Israel, it could have been so easy to make this dream come true. But I guess he never cared enough.
Than, after my divorce, living in Florida, I was hoping to be able to go to one of these dolphine marines, or whatever you call these places, where you can interact with them. But to me, life after divorce was a never ending road to financial problems. It only got worse and worse, and my dreams turned into reality - what does my son need. I even got to a point where I did not exist anymore at all. I didn't have much clothes, didn't have make up, did not take care of my hair, and just lived to be able to provide the minimum must haves for my son.
Now, thank God, I am doing a little better. It is still an embarrasement, but at least now I got to a level where I could open a window for myself and at least look out, look into what I need.
I am back in Israel, and it is available to dive with dolphines, but very expensive. I don't know if I'll have that kind of money in the near (or far) future. And really, I am kind of bored of getting things for myself. I would want it to be a gesture comming from some one who loves me. Not that I wouldn't enjoy it if I'd have to pay for it. I would. I will. But you know, it is just one of those things I always thought would be nice as a surprise. That's all.
The other big dream of mine is getting on a cruise on a luxury ship. It is something I am dreaming of ever since I am an adult. I love the pampering, the good life, the feeling of easy troubleless vacation, the high style. I love traveling, so going from one island to another sounds like a dream. Exotic places, exotic people - with that one person I am madly in love with and he is with me..... Sitting on the deck with a margarita in my hand (actually, whiskey and diet cola, but hey, it should be exotic, right?), watching the sunset while dolphines swim along by the ship, kissing that one special guy.... Oh, my!
It's not that I don't like to get jewerly. I do. But I it is so much easier to pay for a nice jewerly than it is to come up with a romantic idea, make an effort to keep it as a secret, and surprise me with it. Take me to a midnight pick nick on the beach, have a little fire works just for me, and THAN you can give me that bracelet. I'll forever cherish it just because it'll remind me of that night when I was a princess and you were my prince.
It is so hard to find a romantic man like that today. And when we do, it is not the guy we want. Just a couple of days ago I've got the most beautiful compliment.
I had to take my son to his grandparents, who live in another city, and I asked a friend of mine to take us (cause Rapee has failed again). I was thanking him this huge favor, knowing that he was after a busy day of work, and this trip takes a huge chunk out of his time. But he looked at me and said, that I am such an intersting, exciting woman that it is not at all a task for him do take me. He said he doesn't mind the time, the gas, the trafic, cause to him it is just a wonderful oppurtinity to spend time with me. Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!
He even took me to a high class restaurant and the food we've had was a real gastronomic experience. It was just perfect.
But I do not have any romantic feelings, I cannot imagine myself with him. I know he knows that. Yet, this one sentance was a nicer compliment than whatever Rapee and Mr.G. ever could come up with together.
Life isn't fair, is it?
What about you, guys? Any dreams you wanna share with us? Tell me about surprisess you 've got by your loved ones!
