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Just a quick note to let those of you who are following this "drama" that I'm all moved out and in the new place.
 
I was surprised at how little I had to move.  I was all packed up by noon (after starting at 9am) and the boxes in the new place by 3 pm.  I took the rest of the evening to do some unpacking and get acquainted with my new roommate and the pets.
 
I was expecting a call from the BF since I hadn't left a note or anything.  He didn't call until 10 pm, when I had gone to bed, so I only talked for a few minutes.  I'm not sure if we're done talking.
 
This morning I'm feeling as fragile as an egg shell.  I tear up at really random moments.  I can't even bear to think about my life at the moment.  I know this will all get better, but in this moment I'm pretty miserable.
 
To add to the misery I had to go to the DMV to renew my registration and they pretty much obliterated my checking account balance.  So, no possibility that I'll be able to afford a computer for home or a bed for awhile.  I suppose it could be worse.
 
I'll write more later, but I feel some more of those random tears coming on.


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  • Artemis223 said on Aug 23, 2007....
    UI -
     
    I am glad the move went relatively well. 
     
    I doubt they are random tears at all ... I hope that you will try not to judge yourself for your feelings.  Moving is one of the most stressful situations, even under the best circumstances. 
     
    Wishing you comfort *hands you some kleenex* - A.
  • uniquely-ironic said on Aug 23, 2007....
    Artemis - that's for the kleenex, it will come in handy.  I'm sure I'm doing the right thing, it's just hard and stressful right now.
  • Artemis223 said on Aug 23, 2007....
    Moving was one of the hardest things I have ever done, but in retrospect, it was such a good step for me ... I hope it will utlimately bring you happiness as well.
  • uniquely-ironic said on Aug 23, 2007....
    Artemis - I hope it will too.  Time is the thing I need at the moment, happiness will come later.
     
  • Alyss said on Aug 23, 2007....
    {hugs} UI. I hope the move works out well in all regards.
  • the_infernal_optimist said on Aug 23, 2007....
    ((hugs)) It will get better! Until it does, we'll help ya hang in there. :)

    ~Infernal
  • uniquely-ironic said on Aug 23, 2007....

    Alyss - thanks

    TIO - I appreciate that.  really.

  • evil_twin said on Aug 23, 2007....
    I'm sorry this is so hard for you and to top it all off, the DMV took all your money! But like everyone else said, things will get better. It just takes a bit of adjusting. I hope you do get a bed soon though. But at least you have a new place to live. Hang in there :-)

    -evil_twin LA
  • uniquely-ironic said on Aug 23, 2007....
    ET - thanks, yes it will get better. 
  • gingersoul said on Aug 23, 2007....

    Unique.....yeah, good: moving is done. Unpacking is on the way. New place is yours. Now you can cry. Its more than normal. Regain some strenght and start be happier. {hug}

    Did you leave the beer to BF at least?...lol....

  • uniquely-ironic said on Aug 23, 2007....
    ginger - yes, as a matter of fact I left it out on the kitchen counter so that he couldn't miss it
     
  • sweet_cookie01 said on Aug 23, 2007....
    i am sorry that things are a bit stressful for you right now.... i hope things will be better soon...
     
    just look at it this way... its a new beginning with new great possibilities... plus you have new pets with you...(",)
  • mobil said on Aug 23, 2007....
    Are you going through the change Uni? Good for you, the move is now behind you, keep that chin up girl.........and like I said......beware of walls and closed doors haha.........I know, I know........your chins not up that high YET. good luck
  • uniquely-ironic said on Aug 23, 2007....

    sweet - the dog "wolfgang" is a sweetie.  He follows me from room to room.

    mobil - you have no idea how troublesome those walls are.  I hate having to adjust to a new floor plan.

  • silverwhisper said on Aug 23, 2007....
    u-i: this is a good thing you're doing and i'm glad it seems to have gone relatively painlessly.

    [hug]

    ed
  • uniquely-ironic said on Aug 23, 2007....
    SW - I'm trying to keep all of that in mind when I run across the "lonely" feelings.
  • secretlife said on Aug 23, 2007....
    i'm wondering what he said when he found you gone- 
    it's ok to cry ui-
    *passes box of kleenex*
    sometimes a good cry is what we need.
  • silverwhisper said on Aug 23, 2007....
    i think you need a little time to mourn the relationship, u-i.

    ed
  • DesertMermaid said on Aug 23, 2007....

    Unique ~ Its stressful and a very painful situation. I understand. As everyone said it will get better.

    Till then chin up girl! We all are here. Whenever you need us. Shed those tears, you will feel better. And hopefully stronger. Be brave and take good care. God bless :)

  • destinydiva said on Aug 24, 2007....
    unique~ yey!!!!  congratulations, I know its not the perfect situation you wanted, but its a step.....  you moved out , your away from the misery, aaawww I'm really happy for you....
    tears are normal, and as silver said, you need time to mourn the relationship, even though you were miserable and at the point of hating him, its still a huge step you have taken, you know in your heart you have done the right thing,  you have got this far!! you can do anything girl!!!!!   :-)   go you!!!  :-)
    ((((((((hugs)))))))))))

    I'm here for you  xxx

    Destiny xx
  • ZsuzsiO said on Aug 24, 2007....

    Hi, girl! I know I'm probably the last one you want to hear from right now, but I just want to let you know that I am here supporting you.

    There is an old Hebrew saying that goes like this: "A change of location is a change in luck". What it means basically is that now, that you have moved out, and moved on (well, that moving on will take time, but you are on the right way), your life will take a different turn. You will meet new people, you will adopt new habbits (like adjusting to that floor plan, right?) and You will see, that becoming stronger will be a part of your life.

    It is not at all about the moving though. If this moving would be related to something fun and happy, believe me, you wouldn't wann cry. But you are closing a door, letting go - and that is always a tough one. No matter how hard it was with him, now it seems like it is much harder without.

    But that is perfectly fine. That is how it always is. So go ahead and cry if you need to. These tears are natural. It doesn't mean that you are weak or that you'vemade a mistake. It only means that you are a sensitieve, feeling human being. It's OK. And we are all here for you when you need us.

    When you close a door, another one opens up.

    So you don't have a bed? So what - After the fire in January I couldn't buy any furniture, so my son and I slept on a dirty old mattress together, and I've only got a bed two weeks ago!!!!!! And it was A OK. It was just fine. Now, we are in the Middle Eastern burning hell, and I cannot afford to get us an A/C system. It is a bitch, but it is not the end of the world.

    What  doesn't kill us, only makes us stronger.

    You are going to be OK. I promise that to you. Be strong or cry, or do whatever you need to do now to go thru it. Read us. Write to us. Ignore us. Whatever. We are here.

  • Me-Myself&I said on Aug 24, 2007....

    just wanted you to know that i am thinking of you!! take care and now you

    can begin on your new path with hope! it will get better, one door closes...

    another opens....xoxo see ya

     

  • quietone said on Aug 24, 2007....

    Hope you feel better soon

  • Daniel68 said on Aug 24, 2007....
    UI,

    Take care - we here on SC are rooting for you and care about you, even though we are electronic ghosts in cyberspace - we are real. Remember that when you don't think you have friends.

    Dan.
  • uniquely-ironic said on Aug 24, 2007....

    SL - would you believe he thought I'd moved out because of our last arguement?!  Really, I'm not that shallow.

    SW - I think you're right.  In fact I've been "disecting" my feelings trying to figure out how much is mourning and how much is fear.

    DM - thanks for the words of encouragement. 

    Z - I like that Hebrew saying.  I can see that it will get better, but I am going to take the time to work through the loss of familiarity.

    MM&I - thank you

    quietone - I'm sure, bit by bit, I will.

  • uniquely-ironic said on Aug 24, 2007....
    Daniel - (must have been posting at the same time)  thanks, and I really am lucky to have such a robust online group of friends.

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