I've posted a blog two days ago about cheating, and in the first twelve hours I've had over 250 views! I was so surprised, especially since I am not one of those center characters up here, like others, who can post a blog and everyone comments on it. Actually, most of my posts get little on One comment. This one didn't have many comments either, but by today the number of viewing basically doubled itself - which created a higher number than my sex realtaed blogs. Sex related blogs always bring in the highes number of viewers (that is because I do not blog about polititcs or religion). I mostly blog about my own life, and I think it isn't as interesting to others than it is to me.
Anyway, I think I know what happened.
I think that one person, who this blog was aimed to, actually did read it (hah, he told me he did, which is a surprise in it self, I thought I'd never know if he does) and I think now all of his friends are reading it.
Maybe they are all sitting and saying "what a whore, what a bitch, what a shamless bastard". I imagine him sitting in front of the PC re-opening the blog, chewing up each word, diagesting them again and again.
All of a sudden I feel bad for letting this one out. Or at least doing it in such a sharply honest way.
I've read it again trying to put myself into his place. I gotta tell you, my own words made me grimp here and there. Than I smiled, of course, knowing that it is, however, my own blog. But really, I never thought I would get THAT much of attention.
Now I wish I'd have written it a little less sharp, a little less honest. But really, his problem is not the actual blog. His problem is what I have done to him. Yes, he still thinks it's about him. But than, I think the blog is perfect. I love it. It is the only way I could have done it.
Naturally, him reading it means now it is really OVER, which is exactly what I wanted. What I didn't expect is him hating me so much, he doesn't even want to talk to me any more. I am using all my female weapons to save the friendship but his ego is bigger than his heart.
I don't wanna lose him. But none of us can change. He thinks he's the good guy here and I am the moral lacking bitch, and I think he is the sweetest guy ever with a serious growing up to do.
547 views???? OMG!
It's my personal record....
