my mom just phoned to say her boyfriend passed away. I feel powerless & all I can think to do is put it here....
truth be told I did not approve of their relationship - they were living together & she is not divorced from her previous husband (though, in all fairness, she wanted to but was not able to trace him). Also, Billy, this boyfriend, had a drinking problem & was never able to hold down a stable job. I felt that since she has been with him (I think it's been about 4 or 5 years now, maybe even more) that she has lived, really, in squalor. But I held my tongue because as much as I disapproved, I also on some level understood that she was lonely and needed someone. My mom professed to be, in these recent years, a Christian and at times I wondered how wrong it is for me as a Christian to hold my tongue. But now, God forgive me, I'm really glad I did. I know it's probably wrong but I'm just glad I did. I'm glad that I could be here for her now (we were never there for each other in the past) & I'm glad that no barrier of right-&-wrong separated us now when she was sorely in need of comfort. She told me: "you were the only person I really wanted to tell."
I've tried to be supportive, at least tolerant of them. I know how judgemental her sister can be, and God forgive me again for being mean but I thought that one judgemental person was enough. To be fair to my aunt has said anything to my mom out right but.....I don't know how to explain.....
Abyway, Billy was making an effort - he was away in rehab, my mom was at home alone & lonely. I would steal a few moments every couple of days to phone her at work & check up (both our bosses are nit picky). She would tell me he's doing fine, they spoke on the phone, he was encouraged by her was grateful for her. I'm hopeful cynic, I suppose. I want to believe & expect the best of people but experience has taught sometimes differently... so I was glad for the effort but I wanted to wait & see... He returned from the clinic maybe a week ago & then a few days ago was rushed to hospital because of a burst appendix. I phoned to check up on things yesterday & she expected him home shortly. Then today at work I got the call...
I'm not sure if he died last night or this morning...I didn't think to ask...I was more concerned about her staying alone tonight. She is going to stay with one of his kids tonight. I don't know how long she can stay there. I don't want her to be alone. I can only get to her this weekend as it is about a 2 hour drive.
I don't know what to do for her. I don't want her to be alone but I can't take her in. I don't even have proper place to stay myself....
I feel powerless & pretty useless.....
polar, truth, fearing, & other believers we (especially she) could really use your prayers...
