in several parts?.......is this a crude attempt at paragraphing i wonder?

this guy is into a bit of cross dressing........i have never been turned on by men in womens clothes......recently however i was in touch with a guy that liked to wear panties and although we did not end up meeting the seed had been sown and i was into the idea to some extent.......and then i met this (the guy i am just about to write about) guy and he sent me a picture of him in a little skirt, his arse in the air ready for spanking and i suddenly saw the sexiness of it...............anyway..........we meet.......he is wearing panties like i had asked him to.....having had many a request made of me, this is the first time that i have had the opportunity to request anything in the clothing department.....it's an excellent feeling........we get to the hallway of my house and i ask him to show me the panties.......white cotton, cute.........there's a very hard cock in them and it looks hot, i like it a lot.....i enjoy some time playing with them, pulling them toward me so that i can peek inside at his cock and pulling them tight, wedging them between his cheeks.........all very good indeed........still in the hallway i hand him the lube and ask him to face the wall and prepare his arse for me.........i crouch behind him and enjoy the show, it is an impressive show, he relaxes into it well and fingers his hole with a fair amount of abandon......i am close enough by this time for him to feel my breath on his cheeks and am stroking his legs and cock gently..........i stop him and hold his arms above his head, pushing him further against the wall.......i crouch behind him again and spread his cheeks to have a good look, very relaxed.....i slide two fingers straight in and enjoy the warm tight smoothness for a moment or two...........


we have sat and had a coffee and a chat and he has put himself back together again after the little hallway scene.........i hand him a tiny black mini, a boob tube and fishnet hold ups...........once dressed i bend him over the bench pull his panties midway down his thighs and yank his skirt up (i get a little wet doing this, it is both weird and exciting) and spank him for a while.....i like spanking, not a lot can go wrong with it.....i flog him a little too.......i like flogging but do not have much experience with it, so i hold back a bit.........


i am starting to feel cold and harsh.......he is on the floor with his arse (dildo inserted) in the air......i am feeling very harsh indeed.......i do not normally have this feeling, i tend to act it rather than experience it and so i am actually never nasty at all........but i do have the feeling that i want to break this boy........it's disturbing me and turning me on at the same time........i resist the temptation to kick him onto his back and dig the heel of my shoe into his balls (not least because he is cuffed and secured to the four corners of the room and i would not be able to do it as swiftly and smoothly as the urge required), and whip the dildo out, release his cuffs and pull him to his knees with a gentle tug on a handful of his hair instead.......we had not discussed pain in any in depth way, we had simply both expressed a want for a lack of it........but now i am wanting to give him a lot of it and i cannot......it makes me feel even colder towards him.......i do not want to kiss him (i always want to kiss, no matter what game i'm playing)......i do not want to give him anything at all......i consider calling a halt to things given that i am feeling unable to provide even the  basics of what we had discussed........i push his face against my panties in the hope of warming myself to him a little......it doesn't really work.........i ask him how lucky he is.....a muffled 'very' comes back to me.......i realise that this is not going to help but i carry on all the same........'and why are you so very lucky?'.....no answer, he is nervous he may say the wrong thing........'are you so very lucky because i'm letting you get so clo