• jadestar said on Aug 03, 2007....

  Desert - what happened? Are you able to tell?
  I am sorry BTW

• fearing said on Aug 03, 2007....

  Desert - I'm sorry sweety.  Like always, I don't know what to say other than I'm here for you if you need an ear or a shoulder okay?  Hugs to you.  

• quietone said on Aug 03, 2007....

  I don't know what to say either, but also am here.  {{{hugs}}}

• NotSoSinglechick25 said on Aug 03, 2007....

  Desert ~ I'm so sorry.  I'm here too, just gimme a hollar.  There's nothing easy about this but I know that you will feel whole again. 

  J

• anonymous said on Aug 03, 2007....

  I'm here.

• silverwhisper said on Aug 03, 2007....

  what happened there, desert mermaid?
  
  ed

• uniquely-ironic said on Aug 03, 2007....

  It's hard to see something you've invested yourself in fail.  I'm in the same boat right now and it doesn't feel good.  I think it's important for you to hear that it was not you, it just wasn't meant to be.
   
  Go treat yourself to something nice.  Take some time to be alone if that makes you feel better, or go out with the girls if that works for you.  Time will heal the rest.

• gingersoul said on Aug 03, 2007....

  Desert.......imagine seeing that bubble exploding after way more than 3 years.......unfortunately, as you say, the memories will haunt you .....they seem never let go of you....

  Like Unique suggested....try not to be alone now...a network of friends does help to make these situations a little more bearable....dont obsess with the why and the how. It takes two to tango....take your own responsability but dont crucify yourself,  be honest to the cruelty with yourself and him and then try to let it go.  Its hard....good luck...

• Suddenrain said on Aug 03, 2007....

  Desert, Huggggs. I'm so sorry. :-(

• DesertMermaid said on Aug 06, 2007....

  I dont know what to say and so I was quiet for so long. But its unfair to get everyone worried and then not speak up. I apologize. I'm just too confused and too hurt. I am trying to express my feelings. Its difficult but I am really trying. Thank you for listening and for understanding. Thank you for being patient with me.

• DesertMermaid said on Aug 06, 2007....

  jade ~ I am trying to tell but its better I write about it in a new post. I knew at least you would be there for me along with Ed.

  fearing ~ At times we just need someone to listen to us. Thats what I was craving for and you were there for me. I'm really very grateful.

  quiet ~ That you were looking out for me means a lot. No need to say anything. * Hugging you back. *

  NotSoSingle ~ Sorry that I couldnt congratulate you on you engagement dear but you were there for me. I'm really touched.

  Ed ~ I will be posting about it. Thank you so much for listening.

  unique ~ It sure pains as hell but I think I am responsible for what I am going thru. I'm sorry to find you in a similiar situation.
  I sincerely hope it gets better and that you find your strength from within, something I failed at. *Hugs*

  ginger ~ I know you are back from your vacation but what a time to say hello.
  Its so sweet of you to offer me so much support. Thank you dear.

  Sudden ~ I badly needed those hugs honey. And dont be sorry, I'm doing better :)

• jadestar said on Aug 06, 2007....

  There are lots of us there for you, desert. Whenever you are ready you can talk to us. Or not, if you're not up to it. At least you know we're thinking of you. And it sounds lame now...but I KNOW you'll get through this...............

• jadestar said on Aug 06, 2007....

  heck, don't be sorry.............you're a big girl...so am I...I'll just give advice when I can...it may not be right even.....but heck...still here if you need me..................

• silverwhisper said on Aug 06, 2007....

  desertmermaid, you should know by now that i and others are always listening. :>
  
  er...i didn't mean that in the creepy-assed big-brother-is-watching or stalker way...
  
  [looks embarrassed]
  
  ed

• DesertMermaid said on Aug 07, 2007....

  jade ~ I know, I know .... and not just me , we all could do with someone as understanding as you :))

  Ed ~ umm... I thought SC was the big brother or did you take over and I am not aware! In any case you would make a real caring big bro so dont be embarrassed ok! :>

• NotSoSinglechick25 said on Aug 07, 2007....

  Desert ~ Of course I'm here!  I just hate the thought of you being in such pain.  But we are here for you if we can help :-)

• silverwhisper said on Aug 08, 2007....

  whew, i just didn't want you to be creeped out or anything! :>
  
  ed

• DesertMermaid said on Aug 08, 2007....

  Notsosingle~ I have a short term memory when it comes to pain and am bored of crying and analysing ... So throwing caution to the wind! ;) *hugs for you*

  Ed ~no worries, you are far too gentle to scare anyone!

• hotaka said on Aug 08, 2007....

  Hey DesertM. I thought I'd pay you a visit and now I see this post. I was wondering if it was part of the past you alluded to before or if this is a new tale of heartbreak.

  If you don't mind me talking about myself here, my exgirlfriend and I had the most remarkable relationship I ever enjoyed (not better than K but really remarkable). For almost three years I felt I was in a fairytale relationship. It was my dream come true and I loved so deeply and did everything in my every day for that love. Then I was awakened from my dream by a startling reality. I was shocked back to reality. We managed to save our relationship the first time and the second. But in the end we were just two people who loved each other for a while and then moved on to find new loves. I lost my faith in fairytale romance after that and I lost my belief in soul mates.

  So anyway, if you have anything to say, I'll listen and try my best to say something helpful.

• jadestar said on Aug 10, 2007....

  I'm sorry hotaka, I'm confused, I thought you & your ex had patched things up?
   
  (sorry desert, I just had to ask him)

• hotaka said on Aug 10, 2007....

  Oh, jadestar, thanks for your concern, you sweet soul, but when I say my exgirlfriend I am referring to the girl I dated before K many years ago. Yes, K and I are more or less back to normal and maybe even better. But still issues arise from the recent past that make things complicated. This will take time. I am not going to give up though. I think we will be fine. I believe so. We are looking forward to our hike tomorrow. I must go home and pack now. It's midnight!

• jadestar said on Aug 13, 2007....

  sorry for the late reply, hot. A hike sounds so romantic. That's sure to stoke the flames once again. Hope you guys had fun!

• DesertMermaid said on Aug 13, 2007....

  Hotaka : I'm so glad to see you here... Well yeah its all the recent happenings and a new tale of heartbreak, as you nicely put it.

  Of course you can talk about just anything here, anytime and sharing gives us insight and helps us recover right... I'm sorry that you lost your faith once but I think it has been restored again at least to some extent..Thank god for that. :)

  As for me I just dont want to give up on something I put my heart and soul into. I dont want it to end.. I want to try , I really do but that seems impossible with each passing day...

  Hotaka, I know you are there and you will be there whenever I need you..I'm truly thankful... Its such a blessing to have you in my life...

  P.S. Have a great trip though you are already there I believe. I'll just sneak into your blog for that one. Lots of love and wishes for you and K~ for making it till here and letting love win !

• DesertMermaid said on Aug 13, 2007....

  Jade : No worries and certainly no apologies honey...I think I've heard hotaka talk about her a few more times and suspect its the one who wanted to jump out of the car as he said in Destiny's blog :)

  P.S. : Hope you are doing well Jadey :)

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