I haven't heard from P in a few days. Normally, he calls me up every single day. I'm guessing his wife found out or that he's been having second thoughts about what he's doing. Either way, it's been a nice, much needed break, but I'm a bit short on cash lately. I don't know where my money goes! The instability of what I'm doing is the worst part. Two of my dorm mates just got jobs at the new shopping center close to campus--one is working for The Gap and the other one is working as a hostess at some lame restaurant I've never heard of. When I think of how shitty the money can be for those types of jobs, it makes me feel better about what I do. I get wined and dined and sometimes I have sex and I get paid for it. The problem is, the money is so much better that I sometimes wonder if I should be doing it full time, all the time, and just leave school. So many people I know have graduated from good schools and have ended up with lame jobs that they can't stand. All of these things are making me wonder what path I should take.