I'm in serious trouble, and it's because of me being so stupid.

Well, it's not that serious, but I've always hated myself for not being able to say no. I don't know why, it's just that I CAN'T say no if someone asks me to do something, even though I know it's impossible for me to fit anything else into my schedule.

The thing is... Science Far is approaching, and, as you remember, this is my senior year. I wanted to do a great job, since my past projects haven't been good at all. I wanted to work on something interesting and fun. I did have one problem, and it was getting a group of people to work with me since my group from last year didn't quite work. But I had at least gotten a couple of friends to come work with me, so I was halfway there.

Anyway, my plans have been shattered. I was asked by one of the fair's organizers to lead an interactive mega-project. He told me I could use a group of 10 people, and that I'd been selected to lead the one pertaining to Biology (others were assigned Chemistry and Physics). He emphasized it MUST be INTERACTIVE, as in kids-participating-and-having-fun interactive. I told him you could get that kind of interesting projects in Chemistry (at least you can see something changing color or exploding!) and Physics, but not in Biology. Furthermore, how the hell would I be able to get 10 people to work with me on such an unviable project.

Naturally, I said yes. I made my point, but still told him I would do it. How stupid am I? The thing is undoable, yet I couldn't say No. NO. So easy... but I couldn't say it. I told my partners about it, and they were appauled. Just as I was. I decided I couldn't do it, and went to speak with the head of our Scientific section. It went like this,

- "I think an interactive project cannot be done in Biology."
- "Really? I think it can. If you can't do it, we'll tell someone else, then."
- "... I'll call you later."


She'd done it. She dared me. She says I can't do it, now all I want to do is prove her wrong. I've arrived at my house and have done nothing but search anything remotely possible to do in a project. I've come up with very little, the only possible fun-and-interesting project may be related with Neuroscience. You know, reflexes, mind-games, etc.

I still haven't called her; I want to be sure of what I'll say. I'm blank on possible projects (we did think about prothesis and robots, and genetical engineering, but they're not really interactive, not to mention diabolically hard to do).

I got it off my chest, but it's still killing me. I don't know what to do. Either way I'll have a really hard time getting people to work with me... I'm sure that more than one of us SCers are scientists. Care to help a desperate, frustrated 12th grade student?