All the feelings of boredom, foolishness, stress, hatred, anger, and etc etc . . its all causes by my dad? lOlz,when i was a small kid about the age of 5-6, I often read various sorts of story books especially fairy tales . . at times i crossby some books which picture about a kid who was mistreated by my dad but all this just seems like a fiction to me . . However nightmare struck my family whereby my dad change 180 degrees . . from a normal working dad who is alwiz busy with his work to a pure hell devil . . At times, i do ponder bout few questions etc; Do ppl exist for a reason on this earth, so what reason do i exist in such a situation whereby i have a mad, insaint and crazy dad, a weak spirited but great mum and lastly an unsocialise sister who alwiz a victim in school? i was alwayz a *so to say* Top student in best 3 class for like eversince i was kindy to form 3 but my grades somehow sink down da bottom of the sea, portion by portion when this nitemare struck which nvr end but upgrade from bad to worst eversince i was form 4 till now . . . But however no 1 realises the small timid *KelvIN* deep inside me . . because in society, i looks naturally normal kid who always place a smile in me and i talk as if like ntg ever happen to me . . . only God KnOWs and some of my close frenz knows what's happening within me . . i started becoming more adventourous at the age of 16 + which was form 4 . . I guess is part of the way i release my stress and anger . . whereby i hang out late at nite for yum cha *Drink with friends at indian hawker stalls* . . go cyber cafe and so far my worst crime is playing truant . . haha but i try control myself whereby i will nvr fall into a trap of smoking, taking drugs or any extremely forbidden activities . . As i m writting this so call *GRAndfather essay*, just minutes algo, my mum fought badly with my dad and as a wall . . lOlz, i get scratches all over not to mention bruises . . but somehow i manage to give my dad a few *HARDCORE* BLOW and Slam him down the floor for anyone who dare injure or insult my mum, i shall risk everything including my life and even if i have to shred all my blood till the last drop just to avoid her from being hurt . . for i know my mum is a Great and loving mum who has done enough for me and her love i can nvr repay back but unfortunately she met a wrong bloody bastard a.k.a an idiot . . I do realise in this world, there are so many pathethic guyz who are so extremely sick, pervertic and stuffs and this really annoys me for i wonder out there, how many more family will face the same problem just like me . . The question is; I may be able to withstand all this pressure but how bout the other kids out there . .? Will they follow their parent's footstep, step into hse for insaints, become terrorist or extremist and etc etc . . *and also i dunno how long i can stand dis pressure anyway lolz not pleasure* THe worst part bout my PAthethic dad is he doesn't realise what he's doing is so wrong, sick and Disgusting. All he know is, hiding from reality and not to mention his life's full of lie whereby i dun't even know what is really going on and this is putting my whole family in big stake . . SWT! Somehow i m doing all just fine right now for i m still able to stand firm to shield my family from this Insaint CHang's Devil but the problem is . . as everything there is a side effect . . I CAN't pay attention at times in class but da critical part is, i forget how to study . . Sounds like a joke but is a fact . . Still praying over it that i may regain my studying ability for i wont want to be a garbage man who doesnt has a degree in hands due to my father's Devil act . . Last but not least, all i can ask from you Guyz . . ; Please help pray for every family out there who's facing the same situation as me and may God take lead in every action . . God bLess~ thanks