*cry*  why does this still hurt????  On monday.. I was diagnosed with a Kidney infection as I waltzed into the emergency room at the St. Johns Medical Center Emergency Dept.  I laid there on the bed, in agony... tears in my eyes as my back hurt so badly, I felt like a baby was ready to spring to life, tearing past my flesh and squeezing into life.  Out of my skin.  God, it hurt so bad.  Well, now, with the advent of modern painkillers - Vicodin has helped a bunch..  but when it wears off, it still hurts like a motherfucker

Last time I had this - when I was 15 or 16 - about 5 years ago, the pain that I had went away pretty quickly.  This time... it's been 2 days (it feels like it's been a week) and my pain hasn't gone away.  I've had to miss my classes at SMC (santa monica college), to nurse my baby wounds.  Now, I'm excruciatingly behind...  I'm tired, My wounds hurt... and my kidneys are unhappy.  I'm scheduling a CT-Scan soon for my kidneys as requested by my Urologist - Dr. Anger.  What a name, hunh?  Dr. Anger.  *Calling Dr. Anger.  Dr. Anger to the front desk please.*   Jasus Mahry and Johseph.  I'm missing school again tomorrow.  Fuck!!!!  this sucks.  Ho mang - I need to chat with somebody - I need to vent, OWWIEE!  i wish this would go away.  *sigh*  I barely ate today, because my pain was so bad.. and I was doped up on vicodin.  I barely ate the day before - 3 pcs of Whole Grain Pita Bread.  B, L, Dn.  today... I barely choked down one piece of pita bread - but then I was so frustrated with not eating - I was starving inside, yet I couldn't eat... that I finally went and made myself eat a roll of veggie sushi that I had in the fridge and a couple vegan peanut butter mini cookies.  mmm, those cookies are good.  I had to eat them slowly - so as not to upset my tummy or my metabolism ... so they tasted better than usual.  You have no idea how good pita bread tastes when you don't eat anything all day.  *sigh*

 

agh... this sucks.