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Home Sucks...

AnotherLostSoul posted on Jul 11, 2007 | views: 212 | Tags: home, troubles, mom issues, Forgive, wholesale jordan shoes, Home Stinks
I've been home for roughly two weeks now and every time I think I'm ok I find out some thing else that just floors me.
 
For example, my bed that I had been told my Mom threw out, yeah um my sister took it cuz she felt like she needed a new one. This is the same sister who now is hanging around trying to figure out why I won't talk to her unless I have to. Gee, I duno sis and if I have to explain my sense of hurt feelings and betrayal then our relationship wasn't what I thought in the first place so...
 
And Mom - where to start? The woman is just nuts PERIOD. Every two days she tries to pick a fight with me. I think just to see if this is the day I'll cave and fight with her. Still NOT getting the " I"m just not going to do it Ma!! " Must be tiring for her, not giving up and all but I am still feeling very good about the boundries I've set for myself and don't care if Ma and Sis don't like.
 
Hello? You violated me and betrayed my trust in you - you CAN"T just get that back with a I'm sorry, thinking maybe never either while we're talking about it thank you very much.
 
The brothers? Both of them are dolls. Still calling me all the time checkin on me. Both are blown away by Mom and Sister and want me to move to Michigan. We have an Aunt who lives there and she wants me to come.
 
I'm thinking about it, but it's kinda scary. Yes, I'd be away from the madness of Mom and Sister but also pretty much alone and away from my entire support system. Besides, I'm a Florida girl - doesn't it get very cold and snow there?! When it gets in the 70's here I'm wearing sweats, move to Michigan? Yeah, gonna think on that fer a bit...lol
 
I haven't put on any more weight, but holding the 120 and I'm still eating and drinking right. Maybe 120 is good enough as long as I don't begin to lose. I'm only 5'2 so am thinking it's ok to be 120, right?
 
So all an all I'm still getting and feeling better inspite of the people around me. I have lots to think about, like moving but I'm not going to jump without thinking every thing threw so...
 
I missed you guys and now I'm gonna go read how every one's doing...
 
Peace


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  • secretlife said on Jul 11, 2007....

    i think 120 is a good weight for 5'2.

    glad you're feeling better!

  • AnotherLostSoul said on Jul 11, 2007....
    Thank you. I think more would be too much and I'm good, so...
     
     
  • DesertMermaid said on Jul 11, 2007....

    That bed thing was really unfair. Hope it gets better at home but if that is impossible then do weigh your options carefully before you decide . Good luck !

  • uniquely-ironic said on Jul 11, 2007....
    I think your weight is fine.  Have you asked for your bed back?  If your sis says no, then that just makes your boundries more reasonable.  The worst she can say is no.
     
  • AnotherLostSoul said on Jul 11, 2007....
    I did, but got the then what am I gonna do bit, hence the reason I'm not talking to her. I wasn't dead, I was in the hospital and the icing on the cake was that my nephew thought I was dead for 3 weeks. I don't get that at all. How do you let your kid think his Aunt was dead for 3 weeks and not have any sort of concern? I think the distance and the boundries are good for me and everyday I am more sure that's exactly what I need now.
  • uniquely-ironic said on Jul 11, 2007....
    that really sucks.  I don't like to speak ill of other people's families, but your sister really stinks.  I'm glad you're setting those boundries, and I hope you made it clear that even if you were to die that she is NOT the one who will get your stuff.
  • AnotherLostSoul said on Jul 14, 2007....
    uniquely-ironic -  My sister does stink, huh? lol  I am sticking with my boundries and liking it   :-) and I have made it very clear to my entire family that should anything  happen to me, I want my daughter to get every thing of mine.  She is after all, my only child and the one person who really held me together during my hospital stay. I'd have been totally lost with out Nic. As scary as almost dying was, it really changed our relationship for the good.
     
    So all things considered, getting sick enabled me to REALLY open my eyes in so many ways, like being able to set and keep healthy boundries for myself and brought Nic and I alot closer than we had been.
     
    She's young, almost  23  and into partying and for awhile we had felt like strangers. Not so much at all now.  She calls me several times every day just to see how I  am doing and if I'm taking care of me (what have you eaten in the last 2 hours Mom? lol I call her my very own little kgb  :-)  ) and on top of that we are spending loads of time together.
     
    And I know I'm not only feeling better, but getting better because I am able to see the good that came out of my being sick  :-)
  • phantomblogger said on Sep 09, 2007....
    whoa.. I have some similiar stories, I realized I must forgive and move forward. I have alot less stress now with family out of my life. I have more money too, I can pay my bills. Move!
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