• lonely987 said on Jun 30, 2007....

  I definately hope the day goes better for you, CW. <<<HUGS>>>
  Hang in there! Never say DIE! Praying for you...

• lonely987 said on Jun 30, 2007....

  I just came across this quote:
   
  "Reach high, for stars lie hidden in your soul. Dream deep, for every dream precedes the goal."
  Pamela Vaull Starr
   
  Go for whatever you are hoping for...I don't exactly know what it is, since I haven't read many of your posts, but just be sure not to wear out yourself. Rome wasn't built in a day, you know...

• NotSoSinglechick25 said on Jun 30, 2007....

  CW ~ Unfortunately I can relate to the loneliness and frustration of feeling as though I'm not working hard enough.  The pressure we put on ourselves is many times greater than what others might.  It can be hard to live up to our own expectations.  I hope the lake's beauty and calmness has made your day a little, if not a lot, easier.  Sending you positive thoughts....
  J

• Mamie said on Jun 30, 2007....

  CW: don't forget to breathe thru these feelings. We all have them. It is God's timing not ours and we sometimes quit when we are on the first and goal....so don't give up just yet! Your time is coming, I just know it! M

• moonriver said on Jun 30, 2007....

  cw, your friends here at sc are all rooting for you. i've known a bit about your situation for quite a while now, even sensed a few awkward stumbles along the way, for me to feel a deep empathy... mamie's right. give it more time. and choose your friends carefully... :-)
  
  

• GrapeKoolaid said on Jun 30, 2007....

  Hmm...  Interesting.  I wrote this earlier today without any thought, but it appears that I was drawing it from somewhere.  Hang in there, lady.  It's not easy being "super", is it?  The cape's a little too heavy sometimes, the boots a little too tight. 
  
  You are in my thoughts. 
  
  grape. 
  

• MissMimi said on Jun 30, 2007....

  No, ma'am, you are not going to break.  Your friends here, including me, will support you and help you shore up the cracks in your self-confidence.  I know you don't want to go back to the way you were.  You've worked so hard to come this far.
   
  I understand the loneliness, I do.  I guess I could say this in a bit more genteel way, but sometimes, CDub, you just gotta slog your way through the scary stuff (notice I didn't say 'shit' but I was thinking it).  I know you can do it.
   
  Hang in there, Cdubbayou.  {{{{hug}}}}

• CreativeWoman said on Jun 30, 2007....

  lonely,
  Thank you for the quote.  Never say die is a good motto to have.
  
  NotSoSingleChick,
  Thanks.  My time at the lake was nice.  I worked out there for a couple of hours.  I was addressing envelopes for a direct mailing I'm doing.  I stayed until the mosquitoes tried to carry me away.
  
  Mamie,
  Thank you.  The lake was what I needed.  I was down, but I'm not out.
  
  moonriver,
  Thanks.  I do stumble and fall sometimes.  Thank goodness I have friends like you here to offer your support.  I do appreciate you all.
  
  Grape,
  Thank you for keeping me in your thoughts.  I was getting a wedgey under those tights.  No wonder I was cranky.  That dang cape chokes me sometimes.  I don't think I am cut to be "super".  :-)
  
  Mimi,
  Thanks for keeping me in line and shoring up the cracks.  :-)  I feel a little better after my trip to the lake.  It was a combination of relaxation and work.  It was nice.  At least I feel like I was productive. 
  
  CW
  
  
  
  

• DesertMermaid said on Jul 01, 2007....

  CW, There were times in the past when i felt abandoned and unappreciated too or worse taken advantage of. Its really frustrating. I'm not significant but i'm with you. Take care.

• CreativeWoman said on Jul 01, 2007....

  DM,
  You ARE significant.  ....And yes it is frustrating, but we have to dust off and keep moving forward.  I was feeling really low earlier.  Now I seem to be doing a little better.  My friends here, including you, help me so much.  I know I have to keep my eyes on my goals.
  
  CW
  

• sweet_cookie01 said on Jul 01, 2007....

  CW my dear... i wish i could come over and tell you that i am here for you... and give you a real hug and say... you will be okay CW... you will get there... it may be snail paced but i can see that you are doing your best to get to your dreams...

• CreativeWoman said on Jul 01, 2007....

  sweet cookie,
  Yes, I am trying.  I get a little overwhelmed sometimes with everything I want to accomplish.  That overwhelmed feeling is a hard one to overcome.  I have been patient all my life but there are certain things I would really like to see progress on right now.  I'm not happy being the snail, but I will deal with it.  Thank you for the hugs and support.
  
  CW
  

• scipio said on Jul 01, 2007....

  Creative woman ;
   
  Sometimes all of us go through these phases.
  
  Remember - when the going gets tough -  the tough get going.
   
  Just my two bit to see you through.

• Jenna said on Jul 01, 2007....

  CW......my dear...I am sorry you were/are feeling blue and lonely.  You have been doing so well....of course you are going to fall every now and then.  Pick yourself up, dust yourself off.....and put one foot in front of the other. 
   
  You will make it!  And you have so many friends here behind you!
   
  I am glad your lake walked helped a bit. 
  Hang in there girl!

• silverwhisper said on Jul 01, 2007....

  CW, i don't really know quite what to say. so i will say only this.
  
  [hug]
  
  ed

• destinydiva said on Jul 01, 2007....

  Never give up on your dreams CW......   it's believing that makes them come true...
  
  Never give up on yourself.... only you can make your dreams reality
  
  Endurance keeps your dreams alive....  the set backs are there to prepare you.... accept each one as a lesson and learn from it.......
  
  Set backs only block the path to your dreams if you allow them to....keep going..
  
  Your almost there CW look how far you came already....
  
  I believe in you :-)
  
  Destiny x
  
  
  

• destinydiva said on Jul 01, 2007....

  Dont Quit
  

  When things go wrong as they sometimes will
  When the road you're trudging seems all up hill
  When the funds are low and the debts are high
  And you want to smile, but you have to sigh
  When care is pressing you down a bit
  Rest, if you must, but don't you quit.
  
  Life is queer, with its twists and turns
  As everyone of us sometimes learns
  And many a failure turns about
  When he/she might have won had he/she stuck it out
  Don't give up though the pace seems slow
  You may succeed with another blow.
  
  Success is failure turned inside out
  The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
  And you never can tell how close you are
  It may be near when it seems so far
  So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
  It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.
  
  (I dont know who the authour is...  but its nice inspiration :-)
  

• scipio said on Jul 01, 2007....

  destinydiva,
  that was a really nice inspirational poem.
   

• CreativeWoman said on Jul 01, 2007....

  scipio,
  Thank you.  I appreciate your encouragement.
  
  Jenna,
  Thank you. I'm not going to quit. I think I was just feeling sorry for myself.  I had to let it out somewhere and it helps me to do it here.  I don't want to backslide.
  
  Ed,
  Thank you.  I always have appreciated your support.
  
  destiny,
  You are right.  My own actions will pull me through on this.  I feel I need to be more active.  I let fear of the unknown seize me up sometimes.  I'm better today.....I love the poem.  It's very inspirational as scipio says.
  
  scipio,
  I agree.
  
  CW
  

• lfbno7 said on Jul 01, 2007....

  As I was reading your post I had the impression that part of it was that you were in a bad mood.  Then sure enough you wrote that you feel better after a trip to the lake.  I've written a few posts like that too, while in a bad mood.  Then if someone starts trying to cheer you up, you are thinking "thanks, but i just had a trip to the lake and i'm fine now, go back to what you were doing."

• boyzmom said on Jul 01, 2007....

  I bet those same people that seem to back out when you need something don't hesitate to come to you when they need something. Yes, it's a personality thing, you give and give and it would be nice to get something in return but you don't stop giving while you wait!

  I wish I had time to plan things out before separating from my ex- husband but circumstances prevented that and you know, I made it through just fine and I am sure you will also. Don't give up!

• RollingC said on Jul 01, 2007....

  Don't give up CW......
  You've been an inspiration to me in hanging in there and trying to make things work.  While our situations are different the basic foundation is the same.... we're both trying to make the best of things and going about it in our own way. 
  I've been wanting to start an internet business as it has always been a dream of mine but too vague under the present circumstances to succeed.  However, once I get something solid that I can sink my teeth into I'll start.
  You should look into internet advertising and hope for the best.
  Hugs
  Rc
  
  

• MsStar39 said on Jul 01, 2007....

  Cw continue to hang in there, I have had my own business for quite a while and there will always be ups and downs, but always more ups.
  It is especially hard when starting a new business because the competition is great but I urge you to hang in there. Things are usually darkest just before you can see the light. ((((((hugs)))))
  

• Sandman said on Jul 01, 2007....

  Hang in there CW !  Your a smart lady and you

  know your never alone . Sometimes we all feel

  like the world has left us behind . At those times

  think of your friends . On the road as i am so often

  i also feel alone even in a full truckstop . All i do

  is look around and see all the people and i know

  they also have these same fears . So i strike-up a

  conversation and before u know it i forget all

  about being alone . Sometimes i just need to talk

  to a friend and at those moments i reach for my

  phone . A great friend from last year wishes not to

  talk to me anymore and as of

  today she hasn't spoken to me since Nov.  I think

  of her warm smile , i look at her picture , and it

  cheers me up . You

  think of a friend and take comfort in their smile .

  Know this CW ..... You are never alone !  If nothing

  else you have us at s/c !         SAND

• Alyss said on Jul 01, 2007....

  {hugs} for you CW.
  
  You are strong enough and you will get through this. Accept the feelings and move on. Don't let them dominate you. And you are most definitely not alone.

• CreativeWoman said on Jul 01, 2007....

  lfbno7,
  I was definitely in a funk yesterday.  Today is better.  Thank you.
  
  boyz,
  You are right.  I never stop giving.  I think yesterday I was a little low on my reserves.  I needed to recharge a little.  Thank you.
  
  Rc,
  Thanks for the encouragement.  I wish you well on finding your own internet business.
  
  MsStar,
  Thanks for the business advice.  I know I need to work a little harder to get things moving in the direction I want.
  
  Sand,
  I did speak with a friend today.  It's always nice to get that reaffirmation that someone truly does cares. 
  
  Alyss,
  Thank you.  You are always inspirational to me.  Today is better.  I'm moving forward again.  I had to get over that procrastination mountain I had created.  I let myself get overwhelmed.  I will be a success.  I have to be.
  
  CW
  

• DogLips said on Jul 06, 2007....

  I like what you said about needing to feel the fear and do it anyway. You know, a lot of people look at my photos of me camping in the snow and say it must be scary. It's not. It's a thrill for me. I am used to going out to the mountains on my own and camping in the snow if I have to. I know what to expect and I am prepared. But I would be freaked to climb a vertical cliff over a few metres. I have never done it and I think I would need time to get used to it before I could find it thrilling. So, sometimes, in order to get ahead, yes, you do have to feel the fear and do it anyway. Once you have done it you will see there was nothing to fear in the first place.
  
  My first summer in Japan, by the way, after my girlfriend and I broke up, had me at home often on the weekends alone. My friends were often busy too. I didn't have much money and no Internet cafe was near by. I spent a lot of time walking around the neighbourhood. I was pretty bored and lonely. I can understand where you are coming from there.
  
  I wish N would get her act together and follow in your foot steps. She doesn't have to be lonely so she has an advantage. But she is still letting her husband dictate her life. Sucks!
  

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