I'm pretty excited about that. Buying a house was on my to-do list of goals to hit before turning 30. Looks like I'm gonna make it w/4 whole months to spare. Go me!
In other news, the ex-roomates have been annoying the shit outta me still. I made them give back the tv I was letting them borrow. I feel a tad bit bad, since now they're sitting over there w/no tv, but I look at it this way: When they came over last wk, they were saying they wanted to be my friend, asking me to forgive them. I told them it would take time, but they would need to immediately cease asking me for anything, as I felt like they were users, plus they stole from me. I think they stopped asking me for $ and cigs for about one whole day. Soooo......apparently, my forgiveness and friendship can't mean too much to them, since they couldn't follow the one simple instruction of NOT to fucking keep asking me for stuff. I was letting them borrow my tv, but favors are something I reserve for my friends, so.....called her and asked for it back yesterday. Maybe it's just me, but if someone lets me borrow something, then wants it back, I'm not gonna give them shit about it. She pleaded to be able to use it one more night, promised she'd bring it over here this afternoon. Afternoon came and went, I finally called her up and got shitty w/her about it. Two hrs later she brought it over. What a bunch of stupid bullshit. 20 min.s later he was over here ringing the bell and knocking. I no longer answer the door for them. This doesn't stop them from trying several times a day anyway.
If all goes well, I'll be moving on Sat. It's not coming quick enough. Also, I have no moving boxes. I see myself just shoving everything in the back of the uhaul. Can already hear dvd's rolling across the truck, dishes smashing. I need boxes.
Them knocking on my door every five min.s is taking a toll on my nerves.
It sucks that S turned out to be such a huge disappointment. I can't say it's never happened w/friends before though. I don't think my friendship standards are set too high...I don't ask for much. Number one, above all else, don't steal from me. You steal even a penny from me, you are shit. Number two, don't use me. Example:don't spend 900 bucks on fast food in one month then expect me to finance your cigarette habit. Number three, show me the same courtesy and respect I show you. If I'm doing you a favor and letting you live w/me so you don't have to stay in a shelter, just ask yourself, before touching anything of mine, if you'd be ok w/me doing the same to you. Like if I had a contagious rotting flesh disease, would you want me soaking myself in your cooking pot? Probably not. Would you like it if I moved into your home, installed a new internet service provider on your pc, then told you you couldn't use it? How about if I put a virus on your pc then shrugged it off, told you to just clean it up? Would you be ok w/it if I came to live w/you and never paid you rent, kept promising I would, then moved out while you were at work 2 months down the line, leaving a huge turd in your toilet? Are you cool w/me dipping into your weed stash when you're not home? Using all your conditioner and lying about it? Mind if I cut a slit in the side of the bed you're letting me use to hide meth? Steal your towels?
Sadly, this is all shit that's been done to me by people who were supposed to be my friends. Obviously I'm a dumbass for trying to help friends. When I think about all that stuff, it still pisses me off. They say the only way to be truly happy is through forgiveness, but why should you forgive someone if they're not sorry? How can you?
No, my standards are not too high. I realize I went off on a tangent there. Sometimes I just feel so sinned against I need to get it out. All of that shit I listed, it would never even cross my mind to do that to someone, even if they're not my friend. Why is everyone ok w/doing it to me? What the fuck is the matter w/people?
Let's pray that I find some peace in my new home. The house on haunted hill. This apartment is soaked in shitty ex-roomate vibes. I need to shake it off.
