I just wish I knew why some guys are so fucking unfair. They can do their shit and then if one does something slighter similar to the shit they do they treat you like trash...
Ja! I thought I was with a man, but it is clear age does not matter to be an asshole.
OK, I'm just really mad... freacking mad. I think I'm coming to the conclusion that the relationship I'm in is not the best for me. I feel sad most of the time. I feel frustrate the other half, and in between lies a little bit of happines.
I wish I understood relationships at all. I wish I just knew what exactly is what a guy want from a woman, well I'm 21, so I'm not totally a woman, but neither a girl. I just don't get it. You think you have given everything and then it is not enough. But it is OK if they ar the ones not giving you enough.
I am too stupid for my own sake. It is like if I have not learn from the past. Always thinking, "what if this one is the one and I'm just been too wary?"
Gosh, maybe the best thing would be too get out of this relationship. GODs, I hate love and everything in between....I REALLY DO...
OK, I don't hate love, just not been able to have it or keep it in my life...
Why do I always have to give everything? Have not I learn that at the end you ended up with nothing?????
If he does not call me and tell he is sorry I'm just wasting my time. I know, I know I'm...but I know also that a few sweet words and I'm already forgiving him...and then he will make everything seen like if it is all my fault... or to start again..once again.
Why if I know all this, why, just why can't I just finish it and move on, why and I stuck....why and I holding on to someone who is being so unfair...
Oh yea...because I love him so fking much it HURTS me, but does the heart listen to it? Gosh, I trapped myself....
What is the value of life (love, friendship, relationships, etc) if the first practice or lessons we can have from it, is from life itself.
Only one.... and no eraser, no go back, and can't program myself not to fall again. or to stop loving him in this case.
I wish I had a good friend right now..I wish so bad...
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trapbutterfly posted on Jun 17, 2007
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CreativeWoman said on Jun 17, 2007....
trap,
It really feels like you are hurting. Don't take all the blame for everything. There are two people in a relationship. If he gives you all the blame and never takes responsibility for his actions, then maybe it is time to rethink things. You deserve respect. I wish you the best.
CW
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Me-Myself&I said on Jun 17, 2007....
I wish i could find the words to help you and easy the pain. saying it will be ok isn't fair right now to say, so......... i wish you love, happiest and strengthTake care of yourself..... -
trapbutterfly said on Jun 17, 2007....
CW: Tks a lot. Indeed, we had quite a conversation today. And yes, it does take two, and sometimes I forget that. It is not just me or him, but we both need to be fair to each other. Hopefully, after todays' conversation everything will be better. Brighter. One thing for sure though, I do deserve respect, and I'm going to give it to myself. THANKS A LOT.
M-M&I: Thank you so much for your wishes and understanding. I will indeed start taking more care of myself.... I truly thank you.
~Trap =_] -
CreativeWoman said on Jun 18, 2007....
trap,
I'm glad you are communicating. That's a really big thing. I hope it all works out for you.
CW
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