I wish I knew how to write.  I'm so terrible about putting things down on paper and having them accurately describe the way I'm feeling.  It just doesn't do my feelings justice.  But in pure Victorian fashion--I feel as though I could burst right now.

I'm feeling so many things.  Things I thought I'd never feel.  I'm not sure what it is.  This relationship is so new, so can I say I'm falling in love?  Or am I just in that infatuated obsessed stage.  The problem is, is that she and I have known each other for almost 5 years so I already do love her.  We're already such good friends, and now that we're comming to know each other on such a deeper level all these emotions are bubbling up, and I don't know what to do with them all.

I just want to be around her.  All the time.  I want to spend hours and hours in her presence.  I want to lay down with her and get to know every last inch of her glorious self.  Sometimes I want to cry.  Sometimes I want to giggle and laugh.  I'm so terrified and happy at the same time.  I want this to work so badly, but am I ready to let go and face that risk that it might not???  I don't know.