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am I depressed??

LMari posted on Jun 05, 2007 | views: 452 | Tags: feeling empty - feeling flat - auto pilot, Yep, flat, feeling down
since a rough patch with B last wkend and finance stress, i realy havent been myself.
 
i dont know if you've heard of the 'secret' - i was trying to apply it today, when i thought of the things that would make me happy- it had no effect on me. like i was empty and flat? i feel so dead. i feel like im auto pilot.
 
i used to be more fun than this, i used to be jovial and all 'lovey dovey' with B. now im so one-dimensional. practical.
 
is it a phase? what can i do to stop it? i feel like a total different person. sometimes i feel like crying, just a few hard tears - for absolutely nothing. i wish i could just snap my fingers and say 'hello????' there are street kids living under highways - better stop feeling sorry for yourself. but nothing.
 
maybe im making a big thing of it by thinking about it too much? i realy just dont know. has anyone here felt like this before?


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  • luci-fur said on Jun 05, 2007....
    I had a bad patch at one stage but instead of 'the secret' i use abraham-hicks' stuff. Same thing but better. And the Secret comes from Abe-Hicks predominantly.
     
    And it helped the depression lift immediately. But you have to be super-vigilant with your thoughts initially.  To get the ball rolling. And i suppose it's helpful to have some wants. Some things that you really would like to have in your life. This motivates you. And you can put your thoughts onto that want whenever you feel negative. This is the thing.... your thoughts habitually will creep back to the negative  and for a while you will need to really watch that but it becomes second nature after a while.
    Use your emotional state (feelings) as a guiding force. So when you feel negative emotion (it doesn't matter what type or sort) it means your thoughts are on what you dont' want, rather than what you do.
    So i guess thefirst thing to do is to sit yourself down and write out exactly what it is you would liek to have/be/do/achieve in your life. Get that all sorted so you have something hopeful to think about.
     
    Good luck.
    It's actually very easy and life changing.
     
    luci
  • secretlife said on Jun 05, 2007....
    sounds like a case of 'the blahs'.
     
    we all get them from time to time.
     
    plan something for friday or saturday...even if it's just cooking a special meal. 
    give yourself something to look forward to.
     
  • polarheart said on Jun 05, 2007....
    LMari, every person here has been where you are right now, we understand.  Dont beat yourself up about it, it will come to pass.  When I feel like that I just want to go back to being a child without a care in the world, but we cant escape and need to just "ride out the storm".  Take it easy and relinquish the guilt feelings, they will only hinder you from moving forward.  Take Secretlife's advise, just plan something special even if you dont feel like it. . .proactive action often helps to lift the mood.  Let us know how you get on :-)
  • LMari said on Jun 06, 2007....

    LUCI, i just got the book - secret, its basically what you are saying about inner dialogue. i think mine sucks and i need to monitor my thoughts a bit more to bring happiness to myself. i feel better already .

    SECRETLIFE, last night B went to play soccer and i put Queen on FULL BLAST and sang bohemian rapsody in the shower. was pretty uplifting. i kinda planned it in my head when i saw the CD at home.... and i was alone. . . i love singing... but B hates it!!

    POLAR, thanks for the reply. i think i just let things get to me and things seemed bigger than what they were. i feel much better now that ive had a little out burst of shower songs. that always helps me for some odd reason. all thru my life. my mom told me that when i was 4 and my dad fought with her i would put my hands over my ears and sing blah blah black sheep! guess im still a little girl sometimes. and i shouldnt take life so seriously and so 'all or nothing' . one day at a time, one problem at a time.

     

     

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