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a few days bak i had the most beautiful night of my life ever.. no i wasnt with nebody , it didnt involve sex , but it was fantastic , the best that can ever be..;

i spoke to the love of my life , or i shud say my life after 2 years... it was the best time of my life ever.. we broke up after 5 years and had shared sum pretty awsum moents togethe but this night was incomparable..

i called him around 12 , he was a bit shocked but quickly came around.. we started talking.. he thot i had called him to tell him sumthing like i was getting engaged and i cud hear the dread in his voice.. but once i assured him i had called just like that , he became more chilled out.. we talked and talked and talked...

he told abt his life , wat was going on.. abt gis fiance , how sweet , and pretty she was.. i was a bit jealous but more than that i felt very happy for him... i dont know its weurd but true...i wanted to know more abt her but didnt ask too many questions or so i think...

he quickly reverted bak to calling me his fave names for me sweeto and moto.. and i felt a lump in my throat.. it was so gud to hear him say that again...nd it seemed so normal.. he told me i was very sweet many many times and i was overwhelmed by emotion each time, i cudnt even speak or say thankyou...

we both cud feel the love between us pulsating in the air.. he confessed how he missed talking to me... how he was so fucked up wen we broke up...and all i cud do was sob silently...

he told me abt things which shook me to the core..there was this one moent , wen we were in his room , and had just made love , the most amazing ever and i was wrapped in his arms... that time i felt utter bliss , i wished the moment wud last forever.. i tld him that and he smiled which i thot meant that i was acting too senti as usual .. now after 2 years he tld me remember that time , wen u said that i had wished that the world wud stop right there.. i cudnt believe it , i had never told him it was my perfect moment , my moment of utter bliss....oh lord y y did he hav to say such things now...

he told me abt alll my cards he cards kept locked up , saved but cudnt gather strength to read.. how he had saved 100s of my msgs and still remembered them.. and i thot this guy can never remember nething....

 

h told me how e missed talking to me...even though hes engaged , and he cares bt her , loves her  but the magic , the connection between us s unchanged..its 100 out of 100...we still love each other with the same intensity... and god knows wen that will hchange
i told him stuffi tell very few feww pppl like who r my closest frends.. i told him how i feel inscure abt he future at times .. and he said the sweetest thing ever that its unbelievable ..he sais-- think of me as ur sounding board , ur cushion in life..wenever u r tensed , emotionally upset , ne problem physical , monetary i'll always be there...i'll leave everything for u , i'll be there...that'll be my biggest honour in life , that;ll complete r relationship...oh lord thats so amazing....
 
oh god i love the guy , so so much....wat do i do ??????????????
 
u know he has the capacity to understand wen i need his reassurance , and abt wat..im always unsure that im not sexy enuff.. and sumhow he started talking abt how he wanted to eat me up... oh lord hes not supposed to say that. and look at my willpower i said no after not having touched a guy for two years....we settled for a hug and how wished it wud last forever and ever.........i wanted to stay like that forever,,,
 
oh god i love him so much..in between he said once i know u love me , and its not a question , its a statement......and i cudnt deny it.. and this after 2 years...
 
i know we shudnt be doing this , but i dont regret it one bit..... i asked him if i shud hav called or not..and he said im not thinking in terms of right or wrong , but if its making him happy , hes ok..i guess at times its imp to just be happy.....
so im just happy i had that one night with him , the most beautiful night ever......


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  • viciousgrl said on May 28, 2007....
    Why did you break up in the first place?
  • rainandsunshine said on Jun 01, 2007....
    sometimes things happen which we have no control over... same goes for my breakup.. but i'll regret that it happened thruout my life i guess..
  • viciousgrl said on Jun 02, 2007....
    it's just i guess...that two people who apparently still have fellings for one another don't do anything about it, and pretend it doesn't matter. yes, i understand that he's with somebody, and i don't say he should break up with her now...i don't know..i guess i just empathize with you because i once was in the same situation and i know...i imagine how u must feel... i just hope that somehow you will be together again someday, because love is a terrible thing to waste, especially when you love him so much...  
  • rainandsunshine said on Jun 05, 2007....
    i love him so so much .. nd thats why it hurts so bad... but really i think there are no chances of us getting bak , its too late for that.. and he's happy with the other girl,,, so u were in the same situation , did u get bak together ???
  • viciousgrl said on Jun 05, 2007....
    yup i did. Bad move from my part. Now it seems we're braking off again. For good. But to my story ads a little long distance issue that just breaks my will to keep fighting since i could never see him again. But i'll tell you this, the time spent with him after getting back together  has been the most wonderful time of my life. Yes, in the end it turned out ugly for me (but as i've sad, for different reasons), but i don't regret anything. I would've regretted not to fight for it when i still thought there was hope for us... and he was with someone (whom he said he loved) then too, but our bond has always been stronger. 
  • rainandsunshine said on Jun 06, 2007....
    i know  the distance issue is a major problem.... and i know the time you spend together after a breakup is the most beautiful ever....i guess all one shud do is cherish it for its worth.... and then move on.. thats wat i need to do , but dont know how to do???????? how is the biggest question right now

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