sorry cant think of anything for a title of this post. i was supposed to write about my phobia. you know since it's creeping on me again... another zombie flick on t.v. today... but i didnt watch it... why the fuck am i still afraid??? reading on my last post about this, mom commented that maybe i have some morbid fascination about zombies. that's why i keep having phobias about them.
anyway fuck!!!! my inner thigh hurts!!!! this afternoon the floor was slippery and i almost fell down!!! sorry cant explain this entirely in english. i almost made a split move with my thighs... good thing i hold on to something before i completely fell down. and my right inner thigh hurts!!! anyway i'll tell my grandma about this tomorrow maybe we could go to a "manghihilot" i dont know if what you called that i english but its a person who treats you but they massage you although the massage is not for relaxation but for fixing if you broke your bones or reaarange your musles or something. oh crap i cant sit properly. i blame it on my overweight ass. they are like physical theraphist or something.
fuck... i need to lose weight.
anyway back to my fricking phobia. shit...
i forgot about it... just listening to renee olstead voice i completely forgot about it.
fuck i dont even think about it anymore my thigh hurts!!!!!
okay i just came back from my grandma's room she gave me some oil to puton my thigh she said i just had a sprained and if it still hurts tomorrow we'lll go to the "manghihilot"
i feel bad cuz my grandma knees hurts and here i am completely selfishly complaining about my own. maybe tomorrow i'll give her a massage or something...
i feel woozy but i cant sleep yet. fuck i just dank ice coffee this evening. ramblings are on my min right now...
you know what i'm more scared... losing my grandparents... not graduating... my friends and family disappointed in me... falling in love... and i'm really scared to give my best. because i know i am the best...
oh fuck more ramblings...
and you know despite all the things that's going on my head i'm still thinking when will i ever lose my fricking virginity??? this is so fricking funny i could still think about sex!!! orlando bloom i wanna fuck you... although i'll fuck gerard butler first....LOL!!!
well i hope you guys had a better friday night than mine...
can i just settle for TnP??? LOL!!!
