after 5years, ive decided to give it up. me and B tried stopping last year, we did for 6months! but then we got bored, we said we would only smoke when we were drinking. then only on wkends - then that spilled over in the weekday and well - rest is history.
im just tired of spending R640 a month on smokes, im tired of feeling doulbe time sick when i get fluey. i hate the smell on my clothes - or on my linen.
to think - i pay 640 bux a month to inhale and exhale smoke - pathetic. not only am i wasting money, im wasting myself away.
ok i think i convinced myself enough there!? was having doupts for a second there. its not like i dont get the cravings and the urges to have a lovely smoke - i do and i get it strong. i just know now that cant have one. like a kid accepting that he cant have that candy or that toy and not throwing a tantram. it takes a while to get right and get that discipline right. but i know its the bigger picture that will see me through!!!
