I feel fat. Gotta lose some of this tummy but I don't really want my breasts to get smaller again. I guess I can't have it all my way. The overhang has got to go. So I'm gonna start watching what I eat and writing it all down. So far I've had water, a little pasta with marinara sauce, milk, one container of vanilla yogurt, water, and two cookies (BAD). I still need to have dinner.

 

I'm all dehydrated but don't feel like drinking. Isn't dehydration supposed to make you thirsty? I guess I'm all screwed up from Saturday night when I got drunk and puked it all up. That was most unpleasant. I'd never done that before and it sure as hell won't happen again. Yuck. I can still taste the pomegranate schnopps. I didn't even want to drink, I just felt like I had to prove that I'm not just a little religious-raised, can't handle anything, no-fun-at-all girl. I'm not a girl, I'm a woman. A woman who's done drinking. Really done.