My pregnancy was a surprise, my husband and I had been trying for a while and after three miscarriages and a serious health condition we decided it wasn't meant to be. I stopped my fertility drugs, we stopped planning sex from the calander and four days before I was due to start taking my birth control again, I found out I was pregnant!! It was a very difficult pregnancy and I found myself hating every moment of it. Fear was my strongest emotion during those nine months, it was tangible!! I have to admit I was surprised about my feelings for my son when he was born, it was like I had become fearless for him...so, during and after my pregnancy I did what I do best...I wrote about it. Maybe you can relate...
Animal instinct
Preservation of her young
Lineage secured
Origin of birth
An adaptation of self
One grain at a time
Conception of life
A cage of my own design
Impeding free will
Ruptured barrier
A squall of torrent waters
Bestows consciousness
Peace releases me
As he slumbers in my arms
Pampered by wonder
Tiny hands grasping
Devastating my heart
With his tender touch
Maternal marvel
The fire of resentment
Smothered by impulse
Brutal sensations
The beautiful pain of birth
Marks my soul and flesh
Watching as he sleeps
The stillness of his beauty
Imprisoning time
