For months now I have been a wreck. I would have to say it's my hormones. But that sure doesn't make it any better. I have posted about this before and it only seems to grow more intense. I no longer am myself. I have alienated all my loved ones and I don't even like myself anymore. If this is what women have to go through when dealing with their hormones then you can just remove all my female parts and call it a day! I so envy you ladies who have no problems. i've tried all the homeopathic remedies,tried all the different birth controls. None work. Only make me worse. So, I don't know what else to do. Maybe I'm just trying to distract myself right now,my bf is on his way out the door.
HairSprayGirl posted on Apr 29, 2007
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dailyachesandpains said on Apr 29, 2007....
HSG!!!! Am I reading it correctly...your BF is on his way out that door, as in for good, or is he going on an errand?If you and BF are parting, I would have to guess that is the reason why you're so emo right now...who wouldn't be?{{{{HUGS}}}}Daily -
BrenneeLee said on Apr 29, 2007....
Although you're fairly convinced that this is hormonal... I think maybe you should talk to a counselor or something. Not because I think you're crazy hun, but because sometimes... someone on the outside looking in can give you a whole new perspective on things.
That way... you can dump all of the horrible feelings you're having on someone that doesn't know you.... and in not knowing you, can have a completely unbiased opinion. Sometimes it helps knowing that you can walk out of that office and know he's not going to call up all of your closest family members, telling them you've cracked. <---- this last part is an example of what my Mom's done to me *smile*
Sorry, I'm not trying to make fun... I'm just worried about you. It couldn't hurt.
*huge hugs*
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HairSprayGirl said on Apr 29, 2007....
Daily... I meant as in leaving for good,but he didn't actually go anywhere,just waited until I cooled off. I have been feeling emo long before today. Bren.... I have gone to counseling. I have been to more than one. I felt worse each time afterwards. Maybe it takes more than a couple to find the one that works. Gosh! story of my life!!! Obviously,as you might have noticed, I am impatient. I'd like to think I'm not the only one. I don't give things enough time to work. I guess feeling like shit is the option I choose. Your right though. Maybe it's not hormonal and that's just an easy way out. Solving psychological problems seems tougher than hormonal ones. (big sigh) A while back I asked for recommendations for good shrinks in CA. I don't think there are any fellow Californians! -
silverwhisper said on Apr 30, 2007....
HSG, i'm glad that decided to wait. as to finding shrinks in california, weren't you going to ask friends about finding recommendations?
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wombat said on Apr 30, 2007....
HSP: I'm sorry you are still feeling this way. I so wanted to help in some way. I didn't want to get into the "giving medical advice" thing which I have absolutely no business doing, of course. I just hoped for you to find someone qualified to pin-point the problem. I know, with personal things going on, also, it just compounds the physical and emotional problems. I hope you get it all worked out soon and feel better. I do care, and I thought about you last night while I was out. Then realized no one would know who I was talking about. I got up this morning before work, and was glad to see you here, but not glad that you are not feeling ok.Hope others keep responding and someone has just that right thing to say. Like I said, you are not alone! -
HairSprayGirl said on Apr 30, 2007....
Ed, I have asked around. No one seems to go to shrinks in this town! I looked a couple up in the area and I guess I'll have to start there. Wombat, you have helped me more than you realize. The thing about me is, I've always been so strong. I had always held everything so deep inside and now with all my hormones raging (which that is a fact) I can't seem to keep anything in. The one reason I think my problems stem from a hormonal thing is I cry at anything . I can watch something cute on animal planet and bawl my eyes out. I don't expect medical advice at all wombat. I guess just looking for some comforting words,any advice anyone has,and maybe even someone will know exactly what I'm going through. You have been very supportive,thank you. -
silverwhisper said on Apr 30, 2007....
right now i just wish i knew a shrink out your way! :>
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HairSprayGirl said on Apr 30, 2007....
Ed! My thoughts exactly!!! It's so hard to pick one out of a list of names,unless you know someone who has a first hand knowledge of them being any good! I wish one of our fellow soulcaster's was a shrink! haha. -
wombat said on Apr 30, 2007....
HSG: Thank you for your kind words. I haven't forgotten about you. If I come up with anything that can help, I will definitly be around! -
wombat said on Apr 30, 2007....
Saw this and wonder if it will help? Especially parts labled 3, and 4?
http://www.shape.com/livehealthy/print_livehealthy/5842
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HairSprayGirl said on Apr 30, 2007....
thank you wombat. I looked up a couple therapists. one was busy and the other just asked me a million questions and then suggested I see her intern. it was a weird conversation really. it takes courage to break down and talk to someone about your personal issues. I am a little embarrassed but I want to feel better. I guess I am willing to humiliate myself in the process. I just feel so alone. last night I had a breakdown (happens on and off) I felt a sudden sad feeling overwhelm me. don't ask what brought it on. I don't think it was anything in particular. anyways, thank you for caring! -
wombat said on Apr 30, 2007....
I only want to offer what I can. It had only just now occured to me to look something up. I forget sometimes that my computer has other options than SC. Ha! (like my neglected writing) As an afterthought, I did see something about high-level hormone birth control can affect blood pressure--both up and down. Something to look in to. Not that I am back to offering medical advice, mind you! I do so hope you don't get in too bad of a low, you know? Keep remembering it is medical. And there is help, once you find the right help. {{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}} -
HairSprayGirl said on Apr 30, 2007....
I just wish I had the resources. oh and the money! shrinks seem to be a lot of money !! -
wombat said on Apr 30, 2007....
I have first-hand experience with that problem, also. I had to quit going to see mine when I packed up and left my ex (partially at my shrinks advice!) He was stunned when I told him I couldn't afford to see him anymore! We had just gotten into my issues of child abuse--and off I went to be out on my own, making little money, and suffering the flashbacks, migrains, depression etc... all without help. But I was rid of one piece of baggage. Ha. Maybe there is still hope, if you don't mind telling your doctor you need the counselling, but need a little help with the expense. It never hurts to ask for options. -
dailyachesandpains said on Apr 30, 2007....
HSG, I've been going to my therapist for TEN YEARS or more! It can be really odd at first. I think I blew through 3 therapist before I found this guy. I'm terrified that he's going to retire now, new anxiety for me! I don't even know if he's 50 yet and I'm worried about this now! Just pour your soul out on her! That's what they're there for you know! Don't feel bad about laying it out on them!You have to tell the cotton candy heads to start tipping you, oh, and tipping big!{{{hugs}}}Daily -
HairSprayGirl said on Apr 30, 2007....
wombat, I think you have been therapy to me in itself. thank you for talking with me. it helps to know someone else has felt like this before. sounds like you have been through shit too,just like everyone has. but what you have is the skill to cope with it. I admire that and hope I can get it! -
wombat said on Apr 30, 2007....
Not skill, necessity. Ha. I had my son to think about. Maybe what I had, too, was hope. Hope that a better day would come somehow. Yes, I did go through some shit. I also believe, even though I am not a regular church-goer, or anything close, that God stepped in a couple of times. Once, when I saw a light in the woods (a long story) and again, when I met my current husband. That sounds trite, but, really, it isn't. He came an awfully long way (with a wife along) to get divorced and meet me just when I needed him. I barely knew him, but was thinking of him when I was at my absolute lowest. He wasn't even supposed to be there in that town, (his long story) but he was. Anyway, now I am here, where he came from (with him) and she is there (where we left from) Go figure.
He says God sent him to get me--and that's good enough for me.
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HairSprayGirl said on Apr 30, 2007....
things happen for a reason. Sometimes I ask God why he's doing this to me. Sometimes I am so angry with him. But I realize that once I find the right path he will let me know. At least,in my mind and belief,that's how it goes. So, maybe I do have hope afterall. I just need to deal with this pain and the outcome should be worth it. -
wombat said on Apr 30, 2007....
I think maybe that is why I have faith that things will work out. Because they did for me, and you know they will for you, too. Just please never give up that belief! (By the way, I didn't steal him from his ex, they were already divorced. Just wanted to make that clear.) But, that only makes the way things happened more of an "experience" in my life. Not something I made happen. You know? I really think you have a head on your shoulders. (More than I did, or do, at times lately, lol.) I think you will be just fine, but please, get your doctors on the same page as you. And keep in touch? I wish I could say the right thing instead of rambling! -
sweet_cookie01 said on May 01, 2007....
Maybe you need to see a doctor... sometime such mood swings can be controlled taking hormonal pills which help if you have hormonal imbalance. I used to take this medicine which i have forgotten the name... it made me cry and feel depress with no reason at all... thank god the six months was over... because my friends and my family were starting to think i need professional help!! -
HairSprayGirl said on May 01, 2007....
it's very weird what's going on with me. one minute I will feel good,thinking positively and then the next minute (literally that quickly) I am imagining the worst things ever. Just totally negative. Which then starts the stomach aches,headaches,and the anxiety. I need to figure out why I am going through this. Sweet, I am taking birth control (i have tried so many,maybe birth control just isn't for me?) I am only 23,could I need hormonal treatment? I wish I could find a good doctor. and I wish I could figure out whether it's my hormones or all in my head. Why me? I'm having a negative morning wombat. I wish I had good friends like you and all my other sc friends here in person! how desperately I need friends. -
silverwhisper said on May 01, 2007....
HSG, did the mood swings start with the new pills?
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sweet_cookie01 said on May 01, 2007....
If its friends you need... I am over here!! (waving my hand)... I too, am taking birth control pills for almost 7 years now. But its more of a hormonal treatment than a birth control thing. You see i have irregular menstruation so in order for me to be regular i have to take pills... weird right?! If you ask me if you need hormonal treatment my answer is yes... another thing is maybe the pills you are taking is not formulated for you... so please see your gynecologist. They have this test in which they can identify the imbalances in your hormones.... I think there are other ways of birth control aside from taking pills? again that could be offered to you by a ob-gyne.
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HairSprayGirl said on May 01, 2007....
Silver. I really can't tell anymore if this new pill has made them worse. I feel the same,if not worse but the whole reason I am on the pill is to help with my pms and stuff. The gyno who prescribed this pill seems to think if I eliminate a period all together I won't have pms. But he also said I need to give it a chance to work. I am going crazy waititng for them to work. How long do you wait? before wanting to kill yourself. I know I would stop taking them if it got to that point. Sweet, I have asked doctors if I could check my hormone levels. no one seems to think of that and tell me I am too young. I need a specialist but where I live doctors and so far and few between. if you can remember the name of that hormone treatment maybe I can ask someone about it. I am so sick of not having a good doctor. ugh. -
wombat said on May 01, 2007....
HSG: I was thinking the same thing last night. I was feeling that I did not know what to say, honestly. So I was about to tell you to come by for tea! I am worried for you but I really don't know what to tell you at all. I think you need to make an appointment or just walk in and demand a checkup. Tell them how you are feeling and demand to be listened to. That is not good--the sudden mood changes--not that quickly. It is not right, and it is not something you should be going through without immediate help. I am sorry that I can't help.
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