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Well today I had my weekly blood work and it wasn't good news.

My blood counts are so low that I need to get shots this week in hopes of increasing them so that I could have my chemo treatments next week.  My white blood count was 0.5 which it dropped tremendously from last week when it was 3. something.  I have to have two shots all week that will cause me some bone pain because it's suppose to bring my counts up.

I am so extremely scared and sad I don't know what to do other then cry.  I try to be brave and be strong, but it's starting to get harder and harder.  I got my brother's cold, so I'm sick on top of this so I have to keep an eye on my temp. cause if it gets any higher then it is I have to call my doctor and most likely end up back in the hospital.

I can't go back to work so I have no income, i can't seem to find any freelance stuff online so I have no idea how my bills are going to be paid.  It's only monday and my week is terrible.  Again all I want to do is cry.


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  • silverwhisper said on Apr 23, 2007....
    r: is there anyone who can help you with the bills? anyone at all?

    i'm afraid i haven't got anything else to say, and i wish like heck that i did.

    ed
  • secretlife said on Apr 23, 2007....

    when your white count is down, it means your immune system in not working right honey, and that's why you're prone to colds and just about anything else that's out there.

    the chemo has much to do with that.  ...so it's a good thing that they take your blood and monitor these things, and then give you medicines to help your body.

    it seems scary, but it's good that they are watching and helping you.  they don't want you sick...and so sick that the medicine that is going to help you hurts you instead.  Try to get some sleep and eat something healthy.  Take a walk if the weather is nice and think about things that make you happy.  part of this battle you face is making your mind strong too. you need a strong mind to fight what is going on in your body. 

    I'm praying for you. 

    Believe it's going to be ok sweetheart. 

     

  • rmuxagirl said on Apr 23, 2007....
    Ed: My church is donating some money and we're doing some fund-raising stuff to get some more money to help with my bills.

    SL:  Thank you.  We do blood work every week to keep an eye on things and the one nurse said she'll pray with me if I need her too.  It was shocking and overwhelming.  I knew the chemo would make my white counts decrease, but i didn't expect it to drop that much.

    I've been talking to Alex since I got home an hour ago and he's cheering me up :)
  • secretlife said on Apr 23, 2007....

    i'm glad you have someone to help cheer you up!

    i know the feeling of shock.  and yes, it's all of it so very overwhelming. 

    i'm glad to know the church is helping with your bills. 

     

  • queenparanoia said on Apr 23, 2007....
    rmuxagirl i pray that you'll be okay. just cry dear and let the tears fall. i'm here if you need a shoulder to cry on. and i'm happy that your church is helping you with this. youre faith will keep you strong so be strong and ask help from HIM.
  • allaroundgirl said on Apr 23, 2007....

    rmuxagirl just cry, its okay. Its allright to be scared and you don't have to be brave all the time. We're all here for you, anytime you need a pick me up.  I'll keep you in my prayers.

    Keep checking in...{{{hugs}}}

  • gingersoul said on Apr 23, 2007....

    Rmuxa.....i am so sorry.....last time i read you we were talking about shopping spree and asking out boys...

    So sorry, honey, but Secret is right....

    They are monitoring you and they will give you some medicine  to help you out....but you have to help them too in being strong and positive...eat well, rest, take nice walks, read positive things, talk to Alex...everything to stay positive..stress is not good for your body ..

    And for the money....i hope your church will raise enough money for all your needs..{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}.

  • boyzmom said on Apr 23, 2007....
    You know they say it could be worse. Try to look at the bright side of things, like the church getting involved so you could pay bills. You wouldn't have known how supportive they could be without having to go through this. And don't forget to check with a local community action about getting help with utility bills.
  • plainol'countrygirl said on Apr 23, 2007....
    i just wanted to drop you a line and let you know that i care and that you will be in my prayers. just remember to eat foods that keep colds away. my great-grandma had to have chemo and she always ate grule soup which was to keep colds away and to build strength. it really helps. catcha later.
  • MsStar39 said on Apr 23, 2007....
    Girl, I am so sorry to hear about your blood count being so low. I will be praying for your health and also your finances. Continue to stay strong and have faith. ((HUGS))
  • The_three_F_words said on Apr 24, 2007....

    I have a brother who is waiting for a kidney transplant, for the second time.  He lives his life day by day and he lives it fully.  He is my inspiration for living.  He told me how he does it.  He makes sure to focus on his day, getting up, taking a shower, all the activities that make our day "us".  He does not focus on his disease, he doesn't ignore it either.  But, he focuses on living.  He helps many people.  He manages a lab in a hospital in southern california.  He touches their lives in such a way, well, he's developed a following of people who only want him to draw their blood.  They bring him cake, flowers, and the like.  The hospital staff all know him for his kindness and compassion. 

    That's all I know about your struggle, through my brother.  He has a good life, friends and I can only hope to have lived as well.  May you find strength through the people you love and love you, and each day lived well.

    God bless, Mica

  • Susmaryosep said on Apr 24, 2007....
    the_three_F_words,
    Very well said, and thanks for sharing the story about your brother. he surely teaches us how to live, and may he fully recover soon! Rmuxagirl, please stay strong, we will pray for you....
  • secretlife said on Apr 24, 2007....
    i'm hoping today's just a little bit better...
  • CreativeWoman said on Apr 24, 2007....
    rmux,
    I'm praying for you. 

    Are you in the United States? If you are, go to your local Social Security Administration office. Tell them of your situation and ask about the SSI  and disability programs.  There are monies available there.  Then go to your Division of Family Services office.  There are also programs available there to help you. Depending on your condition, the help may be retroactive to the date of your diagnosis. After a social worker is assigned to you, they will lead you through the process of what you qualify for.

    Someone referred my brother to these places when he couldn't work during his battle with cancer.  It was a tremendous help to him. It was a few less things to worry about.

    I know it's scary. Hang in there.

    ((((hugs))))

    CW
     
  • rmuxagirl said on Apr 24, 2007....
    Ginger: I did spend most of the day talking to Alex and he cheered me up, I just wish we were a couple already ;)

    Mica: Thank you so much, I try to live each day day by day, but it gets hard.  THanks for the inspiration.

    SL: Today is a little bit better I still have a nasty ole cough from my brother's cold, but I got some meds for that.

    Everyone else, thank you so much.  I appreciate all the prayers and support I love you all.
  • dreamloser said on Apr 24, 2007....

    thank you for your support- and i am always here for you as well..

    i feel like everything has gone to shit since i came into the university system this semester...

     

    i will pray for you as well.. i have a colonoscopy on the 14th so i will let you know in a blog how things go..thanks again..

  • rmuxagirl said on Apr 24, 2007....
    dream it's totally understandable to feel everything falling apart.  I mean i'm only 24 and have cancer granted it's curable, but ti's still a hard thing to deal with and thankfully I have friends, family, and soulcast.  And I'm sure you'd have the same.  I unfortunately cannot go back to grad school yet.

    OH YEA everyone I was accepted in the grad program I was looking into it sucks I have to wait a year to get into it but i'll try again for next year.
  • mom said on Apr 24, 2007....
    RMU- do you have my email address?  if not, get it from one of the people here and email me.
  • SarahAbrams said on Apr 25, 2007....

    I'll be keeping you in my prayers.

    Congrats on being accecpted to grad school- you should be very proud of yourself!

    Sarah

  • Frlncwrtr said on Apr 25, 2007....

    rmuxagirl: I haven’t been around for awhile and was unaware of your illness. I was shocked when I saw this post.

    I am so sorry to hear about this! As you can see from the comments here, you have plenty of support. People really do care. Best of luck, rmuxagirl!

    You’ll be in my prayers.

    freelance

  • Susmaryosep said on Apr 25, 2007....
    Frincwrtr, You are still around.... Welcome back!!
  • rmuxagirl said on Apr 26, 2007....
    Welcome back frlnc.

    update: Everything is going good.  I'm in tremendous pain which means the shots are working so the bad news= good news thing still in effect haha.
  • Frlncwrtr said on Apr 26, 2007....

    Thanks rmuxagirl!  I'm glad everything is going goo, but sorry to hear that you suffer from such terrible pain.

    Susmary: Yes, I am still around, though I do take more SC breaks now. Thanks for the welcome!

  • Susmaryosep said on Apr 26, 2007....
    Frinc., Ya I was away for quite some time too......
  • Frlncwrtr said on Apr 27, 2007....
    Ok, then, Welcome Back, Sus! 
  • Susmaryosep said on Apr 27, 2007....
    Same to you!!! Dont go away! :-)


  • Frlncwrtr said on Apr 29, 2007....
    I am not planning to :)
  • Susmaryosep said on Apr 30, 2007....
    Let's drink to that!!

  • Frlncwrtr said on May 01, 2007....

    A wonderful idea sus!  What shall we drink?

  • Susmaryosep said on May 02, 2007....
    San Miguel, in Manila?? :-)


  • Holly-Go-Lightly said on May 02, 2007....

    rmuxa--

    regarding your finances- I don't know where you live but if you lived here you would surely qualify for SSI , which is temporary Social Security. This type of thing is exactly what it is for. You will receive a check on the first of every month-usually between $600-$800, depending on which state you live in. After the first regiment of forms, you won't have to continue each month filling out forms to prove you are still disabled. You will continue to receive that check until your doctor is satisfied that you have completely recovered enough to go back to work.

    Do call your local social security office and ask them for info to apply. When I had to do it, they sent me the forms, filled them out & sent back, was given a telephone interview (since obviously you don't want to be out running around) and told my decision would be in about 6 weeks. Well, it only took them 3 weeks to get my doctor's written statement of my illness and any other proof they needed, and along came the check. The best part was that they give you back-pay from the date you first apply with them, plus the regular check amount.

    Let  me know if you decide to try it!!

    Best Wishes & God Bless-

    *Holly*

  • rmuxagirl said on May 02, 2007....
    I'm getting help from the hospital in getting medical assistance and my pharmacy which I work for is helping me as is much church.  I'm working with some freelance stuff which is helping me pay student loans and credit card so I'm not too worried about that...it's the mounting hospital and treatment bills I'm worried about, but God will provide what I need.

    Much love
  • mormonblog2 said on May 13, 2007....
    Yes;  I  conquered lymphoma cancer through prayer and an easy healthy diet ;
    when I am truly trying to live all of Christ's commandments, praying to my Eternal Father in Heaven, closing my prayers in the name of Jesus Christ, I have learned the truth
    of my great great grandmother SARAH STUDEVANT LEAVITT's statement "The fervent and effectual prayer of a rigtheous man (person) availeth much," saith the Lord.
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    I must say when I went in for my blood work they would always tell me I had the best blood they had seen. I think it was my diet high in super-green foods and not much meat.

  • mormonblog2 said on May 17, 2007....
    muxagirl:
    I want to help you, I know I can, I have helped so many others, see my entry under tag blood work. better yet see my blog: http://soulcast.com/mormonblog2
    my email is mormonblog@gmail.com, one of the young mothers I helped cure her cancer had a tumor in her head the size of a small orange.
  • mormonblog2 said on Jun 28, 2007....
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    instructions to GO BACK TO MY OLD website www.welljoe.com
    This is a website I built in 1999 when I conquered my cancer
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    3) choose an archive date like OCT 27, 2005
    4) up will come my old website.

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