• TinSoldier said on Apr 21, 2007....

  I don't see how you could view yourself as ugly. It's more difficult to tell from the second photograph but you look very beautiful in the first.
  
  Please tell me that I am misinterpreting the comment you made on the second photograph regarding the willow switch. Please.
  

• frontanack said on Apr 21, 2007....

  Sorry Tin, But, nope.  That was true.  It was a trauma that closed me in a room.. like solitary confinement.  I was truely "Speechless" (did not know the sound of my own voice , except for crying) when I crawled away from the "marriage".

  I have likened the married life to... 20 years of solitary confinement, on bread and water (or less)... sometimes the water was contaminated... with hard labor (not only the 12 pregnancies and births.. those were fun by comparison...) and emotional, psychological, physical, economical...torture... oh yeah, it was a very interesting and adventure filled life thus far.

• frontanack said on Apr 21, 2007....

  I guess the links worked then, eh?  good to know that. :  )

• MsBradford07 said on Apr 21, 2007....

  You are pretty.

• TinSoldier said on Apr 21, 2007....

  I'm so sorry to hear that, frontanack.
  
  Regarding the links: I had to copy and paste them. When you post or edit you should see a button that looks like a world with a chain link in front of it. Select the text you want to make a link and click the button. A box will pop up. Put your link in that box.
  
  Like this
  
  And this.
  
  Still, my heart goes out to you. I have a hard time imagining someone so horrible or living in that kind of prisoner-of-war type of life.
  
  And 12 children? Wow.  Only having three ourselves and seeing my wife go through that, I couldn't imagine putting her through four times that much.
  

• secretlife said on Apr 21, 2007....

  sometimes when the things happening in our lives are ugly...we see ourselves as extensions of them...and feel ugly.
  i see a beautiful young girl.
   
  who's obviously had some terrible things happen to her in her lifetime.
  i never heard of anyone who thought to whip a baby.  never.
  that is very sad.

• queenparanoia said on Apr 22, 2007....

  i think you are very pretty and your drawings are beautiful!

• binti said on Apr 22, 2007....

• silverwhisper said on Apr 22, 2007....

  like TS, i think you look lovely in that first picture. it's very difficult to see you in the second shot, unfortunately.
  
  ed

• frontanack said on Apr 22, 2007....

  Hey, Tin, thanks for your kind words. Funny how much a nice thought can affect. I will try the link thing... is it possible to put the pictures right on the blog here? I have not clue. thought you might. as to the "person" I married... he got worse after I left him. I think I was the "millstone hung around his neck" as per what Jesus said...? He wanted power to change the world... all I ever remember hearing him talk about , really. add bigotry and racism and the will to annihilate races... and you have a fairly close picture of him (certainly clearer than what his eyes can see.) It may seem funny, but, I really enjoyed having the kids... and raising them was a gas.. unbelievable. Three was the hardest though: once the fourth one came, the eldest did much to help out, even if it was tying shoes, and showing a brother how to brush his teeth. I guess I have a few blogs to do on that. Thanks for your comments. I feel better already.

• frontanack said on Apr 22, 2007....

  Miss Bradford... thanks.

   

  Secret.. thanks.  I appreciate your comments.  I think that is a good annalysis.. about transferring ones feelings about self from feelings about the situations one encounters.  The good thing to find is when you can get over that... when the realization comes that... hey- something horrible happened, but.. that does not make me the horrible one.  That was a really big thing for me to get a grip on. thanks.

• frontanack said on Apr 22, 2007....

  hey queen.. so good to see you hear.  Thanks for the kind words.  I feel all... blushy.  glad you like the drawings too.  I'll be putting more up soon, or so I hope.

   

  Hey, silver... thanks.  like I said, wedding days. - - most people can turn themselves out ok on that.  yeah.. the second one is a  webcam shot of an ancient 110... and I was sort of in a hiding mood... in general.  I will have to find and dig out something more recent. 

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