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I'm sad right now, I'm confused and angry and I just don't know what to do.
 
I had a huge fight with my boyfriend...you know one of those emotionally exhausting ones. I tried to be calm at first but he pushed and pushed and pushed and finally I went over the edge. He tried to make things right again, hugging them out, kissing them away but I would have none of it. It was my turn to push and I did, I pushed hard. I was so angry
 
The last thing I said to him, make that yell at him was to get out. I told him to get out and never call me.
 
He left.
 
The minute he did the tears rolled down. I fought so hard to keep them away from him. I couldn't let him see how much he had hurt me and now I wish maybe I had. I don't want things to be over, not over such a small matter but I was not wrong. I don't feel like I need to apologize.
 
We're both proud people, hesitant to take the first step. Should I call him? Give him a day to cool off...two days? Wait for him to call me? Go looking for him? I don't know...I just don't know. I got a phone call a few minutes ago, a hang up. I'm pretty sure it was him. 
 
I was having a not so good day, the last thing I needed was my boyfriend to turn on me!ARRRGGGHHHH I'M SO FRUSTRATED. I hate that he can make me feel this way. I hurt him, I know I did. I saw the pain in his eyes the minute I uttered the words I knew would deliver the blow.
 
May 26th would have marked our 4 year anniversary. I wonder if it still will. As of now I'm not sure what is going to happen.


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  • confussion said on Apr 20, 2007....
    Fighting sux so bad and the things we say we dont always mean, And ive lost alot. But one day i heard a song called "Foolish Pride" by travis Tritt maybe you should listen to that then decide.
  • silverwhisper said on Apr 21, 2007....
    aag, what was the fight about?

    if this isn't irreparable and you still care about him, i think you should call him since you were the one telling him to leave.

    ed
  • queenparanoia said on Apr 21, 2007....
    this is a tough one. are you ready to take your pride out and call him? are you eady to end a 4 year old relatinsip? what were you guys fighting about anyway?
  • allaroundgirl said on Apr 21, 2007....

    The fight was stupid. It started with me not wanting to something and then he said I never want to do things he wants to do. Then he sat down and sulked and started mumbling things under his breath.

    I told him we should talk about it if it was really bothering him, he said no. I said I think we should otherwise this will just get bigger. He said no. So I figured I would let him cool off and not say another word for the time being. He got up to leave and said "see you later"

    I said "ok"

    He was out the door and then he came back in saying he was going to grab his things, take them with him, not come back...just saying things to get me to react. I guess it bothered him I didn't react the first time. It all went downhill from there.

  • queenparanoia said on Apr 21, 2007....
    oh my. well i hope things will be better for you guys. just talk it out.
  • magentaink said on Apr 21, 2007....
    I hope things get better. Relationships can be challenging. (((((hugs))))
  • secretlife said on Apr 21, 2007....
    Take the weekend as a cooling off period.
    4 years is a long time-
    is he the one?
    or is it time to move on for both of you?
     
     
  • allaroundgirl said on Apr 21, 2007....

    He could be the one. I want him to be the one.

    :(

  • botoni said on Apr 21, 2007....
    Tough call. I m guessing that both of you honing the communication skills will break the problem. Good luck. After four years and because you want it you ve got little to lose by calling him.
  • silverwhisper said on Apr 22, 2007....
    aag: if you want him back, stop worrying about games and just call the man.

    ed
  • allaroundgirl said on Apr 22, 2007....

    I called him. I got his voicemail so I left a message. I told him I was ready to talk if he was. He called me back an hour later and asked if we could get together, somewhere neutral...where I wouldn't be able to kick him out.

    We got together, we talked. Apologies were exchanged and then we talked some more. Things are going to work out.

  • botoni said on Apr 22, 2007....
    WONDERFUL! There is nothing I like better than a happy ending! Congratulations.
  • silverwhisper said on Apr 22, 2007....
    i'm really glad you guys were able to resolve things. :> 4 years is a long time to throw away over what seem to be words spoken in haste and anger.

    ed
  • glitzNglam said on Apr 22, 2007....

    hey girly! im glad to see things turned out good.  its funny how us females say things like "get out" and we NEVER mean it.  but im truly happy that yall are ok.  fighting with your sig other is very hard and emotional...the best way to work things out is to talk about it which you guys did!   

    *hugs*

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