If given the chance could I allow myself to cross the line. I honestly dont know. Right now I think I probably could. If TD was here in front of me. With his broad shoulders and strong arms...his solid chest. And those musicians hands! Long dextrous fingers.... the kind that make me melt. Oh he is HOT..
Lately I have been having wild dreams of a faceless man.. I can't tell if it is TD or my dh.
Im not sure whether it is my luck or subconsious but TD has the same build as my dh.... same height.. similar wieghts... it was scary when I saw him on the webcam..what are the odds.... considering I hadnt seen him before we got to know each other..but i digress.
So what would I do if he was here in front of me.. desire a flame...all of the anticipation and yearning I feel...staring back at me.. scrawled across his face. I know what he feels for me, and I'm sure if he was here and I was free. It would be something. Now it is only potential... if even that.
Having been in that very spot before... my marital problems longstanding... I didn't cheat, not even a kiss. I panicked and ran for the door.
And I tried very hard to work on my marriage because I thought that my not being able to cheat meant I wanted my husband more than I had thought. I told my husband about the attentions of the other man. And that I had been tempted. We worked on things together. For a while it was good. then ....I dont know what happened.
And now here I am very attracted both mentally and physically to a man that I have never met face to face but feel like I have known for a long time (as cheesy as that sounds it is true.) I feel so much for TD. More than the other man that sent me running. That was just office flirting that went too far. TD has potential so much potential. But I still dont know if I am at the point where I would want to cheat.
But I think it has become emotional, and I'm not sure if im ok.
