OEA has offered me an opportunity to address my addiciton with food. Just like an alcoholic has an addiction to alcohol, my addiction is food. I have been away from my support group and I am going to go back this week. I have decided to accept help and select a sponsor. I thought I could do it on my own but I see that I can not. So today I have made a choice to face my sickness and make a change. No longer will I be held a prisoner to my illness and succomb to the call of food.
I just finished eating carbs and sugar that I did not need and was not really hungry for. But it was there and it was available so I did what I have done in the past, I ate it until it was gone. Now I feel horible and sick inside and wish I could vomit everything to feel empty again. It is time for me to choose abstinence again and leave those things alone. Maybe I should call for help an ask for assitance, is it too late?
Thank you God for showing me that I need help!
