Okay fellow think babies. Pull back the red checked curtains on the windows of the Cosmic Cafe...peek out...I am the one in the tree outside, that is just about to go out on a cosmic limb. After buck_rooster pointed out that some of the terms on my last blog, may have crossed up a bit and caused some confusion - which I happen to hate! I have decided to gain a little insight from you all, before I proceed much further.
I was wondering how many of you have heard of the Big Bang? Cosmology is the study of, or the theory of the early universe. As Fred Wolf defines it: "How all that we can imagine as physical began about 15 billion years ago."
I am using his definitions for consistency. I am sure you can find other definitions in the dictionary, or in encyclopedias. Here is his definition of the Big Bang:
"A gigantic explosion at the beginning of time when all matter, energy, space, and time were suddenly created."
I remember years ago, I made a collage for art class. On the collage, I had a poem called, "Am I A Cosmic Accident?" It was quite disheartening to me, as I recall. I believed in Destiny, even as a child. I knew that I had a special purpose...I knew that everybody had a special purpose. I could see it in my friends' faces, and I often "read people", so to speak.
I was an animal charmer too ; ) I had tons of animals of my own: Dogs, cats, chipmunks, a raccoon, snakes, mice, gerbils, turtles, fish, parakeets, and even bugs that I was sure were my little friends.
I loved children, babies and always stood up for the broken, bruised and battered of society, young, disabled and old. How could we all be accidents? I just could not fathom.
But, prayer had been taken out of the schools, so all we had to explain our wonder, was science. I loved science. I loved nature. I spent all of my free time in the woods by our house. I even wrote poetry and took naps in my favorite tree, although not at the same time ; )
Was I a cosmic accident? No. I don't believe so. I am not a chaos junkie like some folks are today. Heck, I grew up in total chaos, and I didn't like it very well at all. I loved going to my grandparents' house, and having some order, some safety, some rules and boundaries that I could trust. It is hell being a kid with no rules, no one to look after you, no one that is really paying attention.
That's how I imagine many people feel that don't, or feel like they just can't believe in God. I am even grateful that my dad was sort of, well, not involved in much of my childhood, He was there, but he was a heavy drinker and thus, very self involved. He was in his own sad little world. I know why he medicated himself now, but then, I could only guess.
I think he and my mother were the two lonliest people I ever knew. Each living in their own minds, their own emotions, and rarely finding solace in anyone, or anything. I didn't blame them though. I just heard that I had a heavenly Father, and I asked Him if that was true? He assured me that it was true, and told me that He was very proud of me for not blaming my parents. I felt special that He loved me, and He was proud of me.
Our Father/Child relationship became more real to me than my own family of origin was. He didn't explain everything to me, mostly, He just reassured me that He was there, actively watching over me, loving me, and that He Himself, would help me to grow up.
So you see, if I hadn't turned to God at such a young age, I might believe that I was an accident, cosmic or natural...but an accident. I came late in life. My parents were 38 when they had me. That's not old by today's standards, but it was "old" for back then. I really was "an accident" in that I certainly was not planned ; )
As it was, I had a very depressed mother and a very depressed father. My father covered up his depression with alcohol. My mother was different. She is a very smart lady, but she acts like she isn't. I guess that is what she medicated herself with...denial.
Back to my Big Bang cosmology question. Do you wonder how the known universe began? Do you know any other theories of origin, besides of course, evolution; which we have all been taught since 1924? It was in 1924 that they first challenged the school systems to be able to teach the theory of evolution. Before that, you and I would have read the Bible, and memorized it, and we would have all known the story of Creation.
Now, we have the theory of evolution, Creationism, and the Intelligent Design. The schools don't allow prayer. Schools have changed drastically since they took prayer out of the schools, it is like they took God out, and now, they wonder where children's values have gone. But, that is another blog folks ; )
Some schools teach all three. I think they leave it up to the teachers and school systems in most states. But educational materials are standardized in public schools. Some teach Creationism. It is decidedly rare, but on the rise.
I am not surprised that most people only believe in evolution. It has been taught pretty much as fact, instead of a theory without proof, or evidence. I believe that it is this lopsided view we are giving our youngsters in school and in the media, that leave them feeling spiritually and emotionally bankrupt. Of course there are many other factors as well, like we have the first daycare generation that is in their 30's now...Generation X, isn't it? But for me, it is mostly because we keep taking God out of our lives. Without God, we have randomness, chance, chaos, and cosmic accidents.
There is even a science term to describe our cosmic origins that sounds like it is politically correct and evolution friendly language: Anthropic Principle. It states "that from an infinite number of possibilities nature could have selected to mae a universe, it selected this one so that we could be created."
So, are you a cosmic accident?
copyright April 14, 2007 Truthsayer
