So I know its been a while since last I blogged but I've been overwhelmed of late with hating my job and finding a whole new thing to worry about: grad school. I had lunch with my grandma a couple of months ago and she said she was so happy that I decided to stay here and go to grad school right out of college. Jigga what? I don't know who told her that but at the time I was thinking about staying out of grad school all together. My grandma has never steered me wrong though, so it got me thinking. Maybe I should go to grad school. If nothing else it will postpone that last, inevitable step into adulthood and give me a few more years to not have to get a real job. That doesn't really seem like a good enough reason to go to grad school so I figured I should make a pros and cons list. Pros: -Probably make more money coming out of college -That whole staying in school two more years thing. It could be enough time for me to figure out what I want to do with the rest of my life because lord knows I haven't got a clue -Opportunity for me to experience a different college and a different town(fsu is pretty much out of the question) with less pressure than it would for me to move there and start a job. Plus, I kinda like the idea of starting over somewhere where no one knows me -I would have better chance of getting a job -I would know more about what I choose to do -More jobs to choose from -I could get an assistantship and teach to help pay off the tuition which is something I've always wanted to try Cons: -With more money comes more responsibility that I am not sure I really want. I don't need a lot of prestiege. I just want to be happy and comfortable -That whole staying in school two more years thing. School is the bane of my existence, do I really want to subject myself to more of it? And it's harder! And I would have to write a thesis! -I might end up hating the different college and different town and be stuck there. Plus, the starting over thing is nice and all but I really would have to make all new friends, find a whole new job and a whole new place to live -You don't need a masters to find a good job and I've majored in enough things that I will probably be covered if I find something I want to do -Real world experience is really the best you can get -The dreaded money issue and this is a big one for me. If I go out of state then the tuition is out of this world, added to moving costs and living costs. Even if I do get a grant or assistantship, it would still be close and I know I would have to take a loan out at some point in time which I would hate to do. I would really like to go out in the real world with no debt. So yeah, I don't know. It doesn't even seem like a question for most of my friends. Darien is going to some top law school and making 150,000 dollars a year right out of college. I read over my cons and they really sound like excuses...I really feel like I should go, like its the smart thing to do, but one of the biggest things keeping me from just going for it is that little voice in my head saying maybe I'm not smart enough, not good enough. I hate that voice and I feel like its kept me from doing a lot. Grad school is a big commitment and one that I do not intend to take lightly. I want to learn as much as I can but I don't want to waste my time and waste my money. I also don't want to not go for something because it's hard and will take a lot of effort and, possibly, rejection. I've gotta grow up and prepare myself for the real world as best I can. And I think that means that I gotta go to grad school.