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The spattering of tears on the ground
breaks the deafening silence at the cost of my heart.

For I am alone.

The tears of blood trickles on as pain buries itself deeper,
and deeper.

The mouths of people open,
yet the only sound I hear
is the spattering of my blood.

I find myself swimming in a strange sea,
only to find the same fate as Jonah.
Spat by a whale into a desolate beach,
an island of gloom, and of death.

The only light I see is the ring of fire in the sky,
Yet I am surrounded in utter darkness.

The spattering grows louder,
faster.

My heart cries blood,
as the sands begin to run out.

The Grim sits by closely, smiling,
as I reach for a blade.
Death is but a loyal lover,
and as seconds pass I fear I would truly be with her.

I can hear the angels singing,
to my doom, my own demise.
As I run it across my wrists,
I feel empty, drained, and dead.



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  • secretlife said on Apr 05, 2007....
    is everything ok PIB?  this is a very sad poem...
  • paidinblood said on Apr 05, 2007....
    actually i find it disturbing and creepy...

    I'm fine SL. :D  Thanks for the concern.
  • secretlife said on Apr 05, 2007....
    what inspired this?
  • silverwhisper said on Apr 05, 2007....
    i'm worried about you, pib. something this dark doesn't just flow so easily as this does for someone for whom things are going well. ?

    ed
  • queenparanoia said on Apr 05, 2007....
    yeah...
     
    i know what this feeling felt like. when you are deaf and all you could hear is the sound of death calling you.
     
    nothing matters anymore. no right or wrong. all you want to do is die.
     
    you lose hope. you reach out but nothing is out there for you.
     
    well all i could say is keep reaching out. listen to the little voice telling you to hold on.
     
    telling you that there is still hope. eventhough let's face it, life is full of shit.
     
    but amidts all of this shit. life continues on living. and there is still hope.
     
    all you need is faith.
     
    faith in Him, faith in your life. faith in you...
     
    i hope youre okay now pib...
  • paidinblood said on Apr 06, 2007....
    SL- I was experimenting with manipulating my own feelings-- trying to find out if i can assume a certain character--a suicidal person.

    Maybe it is just my subconscious self thinking about suicide.  I really don't know.

    I showed it to my friends in RL and they're pretty freaked out. LOL

    No worries, suicide is the last thing on my mind. :D
  • secretlife said on Apr 06, 2007....

    PIB...well GEEZ, how'd you expect your friends to react???

    i'm happy to know you're a'ok....

     

  • queenparanoia said on Apr 06, 2007....
    dont go there PIB even just a certain character. cuz it really is scary.
  • paidinblood said on Apr 07, 2007....
    Queen, you have a very good point there, it IS SCARY.

    I might want to include this in a story, like a character's monologue or something. :D

    much respect,
    piB
  • fatesblade said on Apr 08, 2007....
    if you really are suicidal then such thots aren't disturbing at all. they're soothing...ummm, they give you a kinda peace. i dunno how to explain it. it's like all this pain and blood and death is a means to an end. a place you will get to at all costs. now please don't slit your wrists thinkin it will kill you cuz it won't. u either go up the arm with a deep incision or you move to the neck or somewhere where more blood will be lost. self-mutilation is not worth it and noone is going to feel sorry for you

    tho i know you really aren't suicidal like you said so there's nothing to worry about. right? :D

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A tribute to a family member...
finding death...
Say Goodnight

Close your eyes
Under starlit skies...
Written and performed for the Trans Day of Remembrance....
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